TIME FOR A NEW RESOLUTION
I found recently myself with a spot of (rare) alone time. Instead of finally repacking the kids’ cupboards as planned, I took a breather and reflected on the year that had gone by. I realised I had spent way too much time worrying – about everything outside of my control. No, I will never stop my mom-in-law’s constant judgements on my cooking (or mothering), nor will I ever be as skinny as that mom at playgroup (genes are genes, after all). Some people will just never like me, no matter how friendly I am. But I can like me, I can choose to ignore my mom-in-law and I can actually invite that mom for a coffee date and get to know her beyond her looks. So this year I’m making a choice. I’m going to choose to go easier on myself, and on those around me. And maybe, just maybe, all that worry will disappear.
Being a mom is honestly the greatest miracle ever. I just cannot believe that this bundle of perfection is mine! I can spend hours staring at his tiny toes, watching his chest rise and fall with each breath. Friends and family told me how precious this time is, and how much love I would feel for my baby, but I just couldn’t comprehend the enormity of it. Yes, labour was hard, I’m utterly exhausted and I still don’t fit into any of my pre baby clothes, but none of that really matters. Life has taken on a whole new aspect to it, almost as if I’ve been reborn too. My newborn baby really is the love of my life.