TWINS CHOSE ME!
My twin girls chose me, and I choose them back! Somehow, we will navigate this world and all it has in store for us.
I wake up in the middle of the night sometimes asking myself how I am going to do it. Will I manage? Will I stand in the middle of the house and just scream from being overwhelmed? I also ask myself why me and what this really means going forward as a working mom who already has three children, two boys and a girl, the youngest being 10.
My pregnancy was not so clear at the onset. I started feeling strange, tender breasts, slight nausea, but nothing that was not manageable initially.
I took two pregnancy tests, just to be sure. A faded line appeared on the one; the other was clear with no lines, could have been faulty. I thought I was maybe overreacting and there was nothing. I started googling, trying to understand what else my symptoms could possibly mean. Google came with all kinds of potential illnesses including cancer. I started to fear the worst.
My partner and I went to the coast for a short holiday, and it was here that my symptoms started to intensify. We would be on the couch, chatting, and I would randomly fall into a deep sleep. My favourite oysters and bubbly were no longer palatable. When we got back home, he insisted I test again!
I took another test and this time there were two clear positive lines. I went to see a doctor. To my utter shock I was now 13 weeks pregnant – and I was having twins! I could not let go of the doctor’s hand, squeezed it for dear life, crying and shaking from disbelief. My head started spinning. How was I going handle two babies at the same time. What kind of space would they consume in my tummy?
Then decisions on natural birth or c-section consumed my nights. Expecting twins is both exciting and terrifying at thesametime.Iam33weeksnow.Igo to the loo over eight times and switch positions almost 20 times at night. I worry sometimes if they are not squashing each other as I lie on my side.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s truly a beautiful experience. The biggest obsession is collecting matching terribly adorable clothes. I never thought I would be that mom whose twins wear matching clothes but I just can’t resist! It’s now the great anticipation of them arriving and what they are going to look like!
THABISA HANISE
JOHANNESBURG, GAUTENG