‘I’m in a lonely prison of my own mak­ing’

Closer (UK) - - Real Life -

Writer Kim Wil­lis, 36, lives in Wilt­shire with her hus­band Gaz, also 36. She says, “Five years ago, Gaz and I de­cided to leave Bris­tol – where we were out most nights with mates – and buy a farm­house in ru­ral Wilt­shire. We wanted a change in life and a big­ger house.

“I love our home and it has many perks, in­clud­ing a gar­den and more space, but I des­per­ately miss my friends. And even though I know it’ll only make me feel worse, I of­ten scroll through In­sta­gram, where I’m re­minded ev­ery­one is far too busy liv­ing their best lives to miss me as much as I miss them.

“I see friends for pre-planned week­ends, but week­nights re­mind me that my life choice has cut me off from all the fun I was hav­ing in my twen­ties.

“Hav­ing cho­sen to live in the mid­dle nowhere, we then de­cided against hav­ing chil­dren, which means there’s no easy way of get­ting to know any­one nearby.

“I also work from home and I can go en­tire days with­out see­ing any­one. I even get ex­cited when the post­man comes. I just want some­one to go for a walk with.

“Some­times, I feel like I am in a lonely prison of my own mak­ing. I love the coun­try­side and can’t imag­ine mov­ing back to the city, I just don’t want to feel so alone.”


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