‘She was the nicest, kind­est per­son you’ve ever met’

Part­ner dev­as­tated by death of his preg­nant girl­friend:

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A HEART­BRO­KEN man has de­scribed the mo­ment he learned his preg­nant girl­friend had killed her­self.

Tal­ented sportswoman Imo­gen Evans, who had rep­re­sented Wales in both net­ball and row­ing, was found dead at the home she shared with Michael Stokes ear­lier this year.

At the time she was six weeks’ preg­nant by Michael and the cou­ple were plan­ning to buy a house.

But Michael’s world was shat­tered when, on one oth­er­wise un­re­mark­able morn­ing in June, po­lice ar­rived at the of­fice where he works to tell him his beloved part­ner had taken her own life.

Last month an in­quest into her death heard Imo­gen had bat­tled men­tal health is­sues and lived with bu­limia for most of her life.

But Michael, speak­ing at the home the cou­ple shared, said he never imag­ined he would be given the dev­as­tat­ing news Imo­gen had taken her own life.

Imo­gen, 28, was a so­lic­i­tor and she had planned to buy a home with Michael be­fore her tragic death.

At the home they shared lies a mem­ory book Imo­gen made for Michael last Christ­mas.

Stored safely in a box, it has lain un­touched for months as Michael has not been able to face look­ing at it since he was given the heart­break­ing news that Imo­gen was gone.

It shows every­thing from pic­tures of nights out to cel­e­bra­tions to pieces of the flow­ers that were the first Michael had ever bought for Imo­gen.

“I haven’t opened it – I can’t,” he said. “When I blank [what hap­pened] out I do OK – when I’m fo­cus­ing on work and my fam­ily and my friends.

“But I woke up on Tues­day and, as I got into the car, it popped up – a mem­ory from a year ago and it was when we added each other on Face­book.

“That was a tough day. I wasn’t very good com­pany in work that day.”

Michael, 38, met Imo­gen around a year ago on the dat­ing app Tin­der.

“We started speak­ing on the Tues­day and three days later she mes­saged me and said, ‘Do you fancy the most ran­dom first date ever? I’ve got a spare ticket for the Wales v New Zealand game.’”

De­scrib­ing that date, dur­ing last year’s au­tumn se­ries, he said: “I didn’t watch one minute of the game. We just spoke the whole way through it. We got on un­be­liev­ably. The first night, at the rugby, was the best night of my life.”

Imo­gen moved to Hir­waun to live with Michael six weeks later.

He said: “We were lit­er­ally in­seper­a­ble. I know six weeks sounds crazy fast but it just felt nat­u­ral. It just hap­pened.”

Michael said Imo­gen had been very hon­est with him about her men­tal health from the be­gin­ning. She told him she’d had “a break­down in work” but had re­cov­ered. De­spite this, she con­tin­ued to strug­gle with bu­limia.

“When we first met she didn’t like be­ing on her own. She suf­fered with bu­limia when she was on her own and she’d panic. And I think that’s prob­a­bly why she wanted to spend so much time with me. She didn’t like be­ing on her own.”

Michael, who works in sales, said: “The one thing she called me was her bal­loon. She said her ther­a­pist told her she would cling to some­body or some­thing and it would be her bal­loon which would keep her afloat.”

The in­quest re­vealed her di­aries con­tained sui­ci­dal thoughts and de­tails of her strug­gles with bu­limia, anx­i­ety and de­pres­sion.

Michael said: “What she said was she found it com­fort­ing to know that if she did die, the pain wouldn’t be there any more. And I said, ‘Do you ac­tu­ally think you’d think about it?’

“And she said, ‘No, I’d never con­sider do­ing it. I just find it com­fort­ing that the pain isn’t for ever.’ The way she ex­plained it, she con­vinced me it was sen­si­ble the way she was think­ing it.

“I can’t think how she con­vinced me of that, to be hon­est.”

The cou­ple had a lot to look for­ward to in life.

“We were buy­ing a house, she was preg­nant – I never would have thought for a sec­ond [her death] was any­thing that would have oc­curred,” Michael said.

Re­call­ing the day they found out she

was preg­nant, Michael said: “She came out of the bath­room and she looked quite shocked.

“She said, ‘I’ve got some­thing to tell you but I don’t want you to bicker with me.’

“She just pulled out the preg­nancy test and I couldn’t be­lieve it. We were de­lighted at the news. She cried.”

Michael said June 22 this year had been an en­tirely nor­mal day un­til his world came crash­ing down.

Imo­gen had de­cided to work from home at the time be­cause Ed Sheeran was play­ing a con­cert in Cardiff and she didn’t want to get stuck in any train dis­rup­tion. Michael later mes­saged Imo­gen in­form­ing her he’d ar­rived at work safely, but as the day went on she stopped re­ply­ing to his mes­sages.

He said: “It wasn’t that far out of the or­di­nary be­cause if she got that fo­cused into her work she would be on form for hours at a time, so I just as­sumed she was busy. Then later on in the af­ter­noon the po­lice turned up.”

Po­lice of­fi­cers ar­rived at Michael’s of­fice to tell him the aw­ful news that Imo­gen had been found dead at the home they shared.

Her mother, Su­san Evans, dis­cov­ered her daugh­ter’s body just hours after re­ceiv­ing a mes­sage from Imo­gen which said: “I will re­move my­self from the face of the Earth.”

At the in­quest it was heard she had ar­gued with her mother prior to the in­ci­dent.

Re­count­ing the mo­ment he was told of Imo­gen’s death, Michael said: “It just shocked me. I ac­tu­ally threw up. I just felt com­pletely numb.”

Since June Michael ad­mit­ted he’s found it hard to cope. He’s spent the past few months try­ing to block things out to get by.

“I have been re­ally lucky. I have a re­ally good net­work of sup­port from my fam­ily and friends. They have all ral­lied to­gether for me.”

But even though Imo­gen strug­gled with many is­sues through­out her short life, it was her en­dear­ing and car­ing per­son­al­ity that made Michael fall in love with her.

When Michael talks about his mem­o­ries, he smiles fondly and it’s clear they shared a strong con­nec­tion from the very be­gin­ning.

He speaks of her with emo­tion, ten­der­ness, and – most of all – love.

Michael said: “She was the nicest, kind­est per­son you’ve ever met. And it wasn’t just me – it was when she spoke to any­body. When you’d have a con­ver­sa­tion with her you’d never for­get it.

“Imo­gen gen­uinely was un­be­liev­able and ev­ery­one who I know who knows her has said the same.

“She was the life and soul of the party. Her smile was so in­fec­tious. If ever I was even slightly down, she’d pick me up. She would al­ways give me that in­spi­ra­tional talk. She would just al­ways say the right things.”

At the in­quest, Coro­ner An­drew Barkley recorded a con­clu­sion of sui­cide.

Mike Stokes with Imo­gen

Imo­gen Evans had bat­tled with bu­limia

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