‘I didn’t want to be here anymore’
MUM-OF-THREE TURNS HER LIFE AROUND AFTER SUICIDAL THOUGHTS
A GRIMSBY mum who “didn’t want to be here anymore” has turned her life around to help others
Mum-of-three Georgina-Leigh Pearce said she reached the point where she simply didn’t want to live another day.
She walked herself down to a footpath in Laceby Acres, known locally as Green Bridge, in June last year, after waking up and deciding she wanted to end her life. Georgina-Leigh said: “I ended up sitting on a bench for two hours straight crying my eyes out.
“I just didn’t think I should be here anymore and began looking at this tree, trying to work out whether it could hold my body weight.” Georgina-Leigh said four people walked past her while she sat alone, crying on the bench. She added: “Only one actually asked if I was OK. Not wanting to speak up about it, I said I was fine and the man moved on.
“My husband had been constantly ringing me, but I couldn’t pick up the phone, I was in a mess. “Eventually I answered my phone and went back home with my husband and ended up having a severe breakdown.
“For two days he was begging me to ring the doctors. I didn’t want to at first because I was so scared of telling anyone the truth. “It was the very first time I’d actually admitted that I wasn’t OK.” Georgina-Leigh says she has struggled with her mental health since she was aged 16 – but finally got the help she needed. Now, she has committed herself to helping others through their struggles with mental health. She said: “From then on, my doctor rang me every day for seven weeks for a chat and to see how I’d been doing.
“That’s what triggered me to try and help other people’s lives.
“I set up a Facebook page called Me and The Mirror, where people can post publicly or anonymously about the difficulties they’re going through.
“It’s not always mental health either - we have a number of topics like grief or miscarriages that people talk to one another about.” More than 700 people have joined Me and The Mirror, with members spanning 13 countries. Georgina-Leigh said: “I was talking to an American lady for around four days about her mental health and the struggle she was facing. “Then, on the fourth day, she messaged me to say thank you for saving my life.
“She had been planning on taking her own life, but because she spoke to someone she decided against it.
“That’s what it’s all about for me, helping just one person makes it all worthwhile.” Georgina-Leigh hopes sharing her story will encourage others who may be struggling with their mental health to seek help.
She added: “It’s hard to explain why people don’t speak up when they’re having problems. For many, it’s the fear of being judged for what they’re saying.
“The first time I spoke out, to my doctor, I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.
“I never had a trigger for my depression, it just built up over a number of years.
“The only specific example is the Post Natal Depression I suffered with my third child. “I couldn’t speak to anyone at first, I was scared to even talk to my husband about it. However, after being open, I feel so much stronger.
“If it wasn’t for my husband though, I probably wouldn’t be here right now. I soon realised that I couldn’t leave our little family behind.
“I thought everyone was just better off without me at the time, but it would have been so much worse if I had taken my life.”