It wasn’t just me…
Staring at her with wide eyes, I couldn’t tell Mum the truth
Ididn’t sleep a wink that night, lay there in agonising pain, feeling overwhelmingly confused. In my mind, the words he’d said as he raped me played over and over.
‘You’ve wanted this, you’ve always wanted this...’
The next day,
I spotted blood running down my leg and I knew I couldn’t hide it from Mum.
‘It’s your period,’ she explained.
Staring at her with wide eyes, I couldn’t bring myself to tell the truth, that her evil partner had taken my virginity.
Luckily, after living with Graham for 18 months, Mum uncovered an affair and threw him out of our house.
‘It’s over,’ I thought. Only, it wasn’t that easy. Graham’s actions had changed the course of my life.
I grew up haunted by what he’d done.
Drinking myself into oblivion, I never enjoyed sex as it was a nasty reminder of what Graham had done to me.
My unwillingness to be intimate meant I found relationships tough.
Luckily, the births of my three children offered me some refuge from the pain.
In 2013, after yet another night of boozing, I broke down and told my husband everything...
‘You need to tell the police,’ he said.
So, that night, I rang the police station and told them I’d been abused as a child.
In the haze of wine, it felt right.
But by the morning, I regretted every word of my admission.
I decided to tell my mum what had happened.
Breaking down with every word of the description of the abuse, Mum was heartbroken. She went to the police, too.
Fearing the consequences if Graham found out I’d reported him, though, I let his control take hold of me again and retracted my statement.
Mum and me never spoke about it again.
My marriage broke down soon after.
Then, after yet another relationship breakdown in 2017, shortly after my 50th birthday, I knew I couldn’t let Graham control me any longer.
I went straight to the police and gave a full statement.
This time, I stood by my words, but I feared I wouldn’t be believed.
In April 2017, Graham Fisher, then 79, was arrested.
Soon after, two other victims came forward to accuse him of sexual abuse.
Their case made mine stronger, and I was determined to send
Graham down for a long time.
Denying everything, he said we were conspiring against him.
But, at Preston Crown Court in July 2018, a jury found him guilty of 11 counts of indecent assault, one count of rape and one count of attempted rape, against me and two others.
He was sentenced to
16 years in prison and will remain on the sex offenders register for life.
Finally, I had justice and could move on with my life.
Every day, I think about my dad, and wonder what my life would be like now if he was still alive.
I still miss him, but the blissful memories we shared give me the strength I need to go on.
I’m trying to move on with my life now
Graham was tried at Preston Crown Court