Chilling note: I’m going straight to hell, no question JOHN SCHEERHOUT
STEPPING Hill Hospital poisoner Victorino Chua, left, penned his own ‘confession’ where he boasted he will go ‘straight to hell’.
Detectives found the 13-page document, which was in pidgin English, in the kitchen drawer of his terraced home in Heaton Nor- ris when they arrested him on suspicion of murder in 2012.
He claimed in court it was simply written to release tension on the advice of his counsellor.
But detectives believe it was exactly how Chua himself had described it – a ‘bitter nurse confession’.
In the letter Chua characterised himself as a boozing, smoking, drugtaking, drug-dealing wheeler-dealing lothario who – when he first became a nurse in Manila – admits ‘I’m evil at the same time angel’.
After starting a new life with his wife Mary Anne and their two daughters in Stockport, Chua believed he has deceived his colleagues, friends and neighbours, writing: “They thought I’m a nice person but there a devil in me.”
He bemoaned a succession of ailments, a bad back which caused him to be off work for nine months and an injured knee which required surgery, as well as a complaint to the ombudsman.
By 2010, he was on sleeping tablets, anti-depressants, pain-killers and having counselling.
Detectives believe the ‘confession’ is a rare insight into the warped mind of a narcissistic, psychotic murderer.
He writes that he sometimes thinks about taking his own life but admits ‘I know if I go, I go straight to hell no question ask’.
Towards the end of his self-pitying note, he wrote: “So I’m writing this letter in case something happen to me my family can continue my case or can tell somebody to look at it and work out how an angel turn to an evil person.
“The bitter nurse confession. Got lots to tell but I just take it to my grave. My family will make history here in England.”
Later he writes how he tries to keep the physical pain he is feeling from the medical staff who are treating him.
He says: “Still inside of me I can feel the anger that any time will explode just still hanging on can still control it but if I will be pushed they gonna be sorry.”
Detective Superintendent Simon Barraclough said: “Chua demonstrated clear narcissistic and psy- chopathic tendencies and such indiscriminate poisoning is testament to that.
“He clearly had no regard for his patients and did not give a second thought as to who would be injured or the devastation this would cause them and their families.
“There can be no doubt that he intended to both murder and injure patients under his care. Despite him knowing what effect this poisoning was causing, he continued with no regard for his victims.
“It is so far from keeping with the ethos of those employed at the hospital or as health professionals generally that it is incredulous to believe someone in that vocation to be capable of such malevolence.”