I’ve put baby dream on ice

I haven’t mourned the loss of my 20s at all… they were completely taken over by feeling insecure, not being confident in my body, feeling lost and not knowing who I could trust.

Now I am in my 30s, I am going from strength to strength – I know myself and I have contentment.

I have a man who loves me just as much in my baked bean-stained trackies as when I am dolled up to the nines, having spent three hours in hair and make-up.

But at 34, I have decided to freeze my eggs. Ercan is only 28 and I have chosen the Cougar life!

When I look after my two-year-old niece Mavie, sometimes I cry because she’s not mine!

It’s really hard and it’s one of the cruel tricks your body plays on you so I am taking every sort of logical step I can to protect future Vicky.