BARBARA WINDSOR HUSBAND’S MOST I’m helpless watching my sweet Babs suffer Scott tells of nightly apology fr om wife

Scott, 56, said: “Barbara can’t be left alone any more. That’s the reality of it. She has to have constant care.

“She can’t look after herself but then we still sit and have dinner and watch TV and have normal conversations.

“There are also some funny moments where we laugh.

“The sweet side of Barbara has come out in actual fact. So far she hasn’t had that aggression that I know some people do get. That is part of it, that may come, I don’t know.

“But at the moment she is very sensitive to others. She keeps apologising to me for the fact that she’s not well. So she is very aware which is why I am very sensitive about conversations.

“Literally every night she will say to me, ‘I’m so sorry about this.’ And she thanks me for looking after her. I say to her, ‘You don’t have to thank me.’”

When asked if they have had discussions about the Eastenders and Carry On star moving into a care home, Scott says: “We haven’t. We just take things day by day. I haven’t spoken to Barbara – about the end of her life.

“There is a lot of Barbara that is still very much pre present, and I think you v have t to be very sensitive sen when you talk to people who ar are actually living with the illness. There is a sensitivity. You talk about certain things, you talk about the reality of a lo lot of things.

“But I thin think one has to be careful about not traumatising tr or suddenly causing tho thoughts that may not be there at the moment.”

Evenwh Even when the cracks in Barbara’s healt health began to appear, Scott wa was desperate to protect his wi wife of 18 years.

He says: “The lowest p point would have been d diagnosis because however you look at it, to get that diagnosis you can’t help but wind the clock forward.” And Scott unashamedly admits he has turned to therapy to help him come to terms with the new reality.

He explains: “I look after myself, I take myself away and see a therapist. I have no shame in saying that.

Suffering

“I sit down and get out of my head, it’s quite easy to be open about what is going on with myself.

“That helps me, it stops me going insane. I go every couple of weeks. If everyone had therapy there might be a few less problems in the world.”

Scott is happy to talk about his therapy and Barbara’s diagnosis because he wants to help others suffering. He says he will step back out of the spotlight once he has raised enough money for Dementia Revolution.

He says: “I was told when we went public with it that even people who were living with it and didn’t like talking about it were saying to their families, ‘You know Barbara Windsor, she’s got that thing that I’ve got.’

“It made it a little bit OK to talk about it for them. That is the reason why I’m OK with it. I’ve spent 25 years trying to keep out of the spotlight, I’ve always been Barbara’s partner.

“On the red carpet I’ve always been happy for her to have a picture taken.

“I’ve never wanted to be a celebrity partner trying to get a career off my famous spouse’s persona. I couldn’t live with that.

Sharp

“This is a different matter. I am here for a completely different reason that I don’t want to be here. I’m told it can help but then I will go away.”

Barbara was told she had Alzheimer’s nearly five years ago. The couple decided to tell the public last May.

Scott and Barbara never contemplated such a debilitating

illness. He says: “She was