Miss her all the time. I didn’t until she was taken from me. out there, walking the streets...
have been about ten seconds before I managed to turn and head back to the V. I tried to say I’d found Jodi but all that came out was: “I’ve found something.”
‘I went into shock. Alice demanded to go over the wall. Then I received a call from the police operator. I told her we’d found a body, to send the police.
‘When two officers arrived, the senior of the two told the other to take the search party members to the school and told me, at 14 years old, clearly the youngest there, to climb back over the wall and take him to the body.
‘I couldn’t. I couldn’t bring myself to go back over the wall.
‘He went over and I heard him say, “Oh, s**t”, then he radioed in that there was a body. He took me back to the school (where the other search party members were) and I sat on the ground with Mia. My mum had been constantly phoning me, as it was either nearly or just after midnight. Then an officer put me in the back of a police Land Rover and took my phone off me. He had told my mum I was being taken to the station. I was put in an unmarked car by two plain clothes officers and taken to the station. I later found out the rest of the search party were allowed to go to Judith’s house.’ ‘I couldn’t get my head around what had happened, what I had seen. By the time I got home from the police station, my mum had contacted my GP, who prescribed a heavy dose of Temazepam and Fluoxetine, then later, Lormetazepam. Temazepam and Lormetazepam are for short-term relief of severe anxiety and insomnia. Side effects include marked personality disorder, confusion and amnesia. It is not recommended that either be given to a child.
‘Fluoxetine is for treatment of depressive illness. It is not recommended for adolescents under 18. I was later prescribed Trazodone Hydrochloride.
‘Its side effects include behavioural disturbances, particularly in children.
‘This medication regime, in such high doses, explains the obsession with calling me “emotionless”.’
this long is a damning indictment of the Scottish “criminal justice system”.’