Cheryl: I was on the brink of breakdown
CHERYL COLE has revealed the collapse her marriage to Ashley Cole left her on the verge a mental breakdown.
The pop star, 31, opened up about the demons she suffered after her split from the philandering footballer, which left her feeling ‘horribly numb’ and seeking medical help.
‘I was borderline. I was walking crazyville. I had no fire in me belly. I didn’t feel passionate any more, just a bit dead. Getting out of bed was difficult,’ she told The Times Magazine.
Cheryl – who married French restaurant tycoon Jean-Bernard Fernandez Versini in secret last week – added: ‘I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat properly. Trying to go to sleep, and suddenly when you’re sleeping, the world gets loud.’
The Geordie singer has taken two years away from the limelight to put her life back on track, and says she is now ‘so over it’ and looking ahead to a huge comeback.
She added: ‘You know what I also realised these past years? I refuse to let somebody else’s s***ty behaviour change me fundamentally.
‘Because you treat me like s***, I’m not going to become bitter and twisted. I’m going to remain the person I am, with the values and beliefs that I had, and let you deal with your s***.’
Cheryl, who is adopting her new husband’s last name, has released a new single, Crazy Stupid Love, and is also set to rejoin the X Factor as a judge for the first time since she was unceremoniously sacked from the US version of the show by Simon Cowell in 2010.
On going back to Cowell, she said: ‘It felt like unfinished business, it was inevitable that we worked together again. It never felt like that was it – we’re too compatible.’
Asked about children, she said: ‘We’ll see. It’s not in my plans.’