The Sunday Post (Inverness)

Despite having two years out of the game

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“I struggled,” he admitted. “There’s a lot of talk right now about depression in football – and sport in general – and people struggling when they finish the game.

“But no one really talks about managers and coaches in the discussion, or what happens to them.

“You have an initial period where you leave a job, and you get a bit of media work. Then, all of a sudden, it stops, and you end up banging your head against a brick wall.

“I was fortunate I had a strong wife in Lisa. She and the family supported me. “I’m not saying I suffered from depression, because I know people who do, but there are days when it’s a struggle – a struggle to continuall­y try to chase your dream when doors are getting shut.

“You don’t get a reply, you don’t get anything back and you think: ‘What am I doing wrong?’.

“People are telling you: ‘You’ve got a good CV’. Your CV is worth nothing unless someone give you a chance.

“We went away in the summer to Canada for a month, literally only because my mum lives there and I didn’t need to pay for a hotel!

“While we were over there, we took stock and the decision was that when we got back, I needed to go and get a job and start providing.

“My wife was saying: ‘No, I’ll get a job, I’ll go and do it’.

“Now, this might be old-school, but I like the fact that my wife’s at home looking after the family and being there when the kids come in from school.

“We had been living on what I’d saved from football over the years – and it was running out.

“That was it. It was either ‘chase your dream’ or give up on it, decide enough is enough, and go and get a job.” Moving to Canada for good was considered and swiftly knocked back, with family considerat­ions front and centre.

“I’m not going to lie. I probably would have put to bed my thoughts of being a manager,” is Holt’s assessment.

Now they are alive and kicking. With three wins and a draw since Holt took charge, Livi are flying.

They are stubborn at the back and hardworkin­g up front – a team built in the image of their manager.

Today they face a stern test. But whatever happens, they will return to training next week looking, just like their manager, to the future.

“We’re not daft. We might go on a run where we lose three, four, five games,” said Holt.

“That’s fine, as it won’t be because we are rubbish or have downed tools or haven’t worked hard enough.”

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