I am not special at all in my suffering
TO HIS NETFLIX DOCUMENTARY
LEWIS Capaldi’s music has dominated the airwaves and the UK charts, and his honest revelations about mental health have earned him a legion of supporters beyond the entertainment sphere.
And, following the release of the Netflix documentary Lewis Capaldi: How I’m Feeling Now in March this year, the Scottish singersongwriter was lavished with more praise.
At just 26, he’s a Grammy nominee and a Brit Award winner, has released two popular and acclaimed albums and, in 2020, it was revealed that his track Someone You Loved was not only the bestselling single of 2019, but also the longest-running top 10 UK song of all time by a British artist.
His second studio album, Broken By Desire To Be Heavenly Sent, featuring hit single Forget Me, arrived on May 19 and has surpassed Ed Sheeran’s Subtract to become the fastest-selling album of 2023 so far.
But speak to the Glaswegian musician and there is refreshingly not a hint of an ego present.
“It forced me again to address a lot of things within my life and within myself that I’m addressing and I’m still working out,” he says over the phone of the Netflix documentary which charts his career to-date.
“Even when the documentary came out, I didn’t expect it to be as big of a thing because I thought I’m just a singer. I’m not a (Justin) Bieber or a Coldplay or an Ed Sheeran, I don’t feel like there’s a vested interest in my day to day life.
“I get left alone for the most part, which is lovely, I’m not complaining about that. If Harry Styles did a documentary I’d be like ‘that makes sense, I’d love to watch that’. So when people reacted to it the way they did it was incredible.”
The documentary has, he muses, helped him feel closer to his fans.
He explains: “I almost feel closer to people that listen to my music now because you’ve shared something with them. It feels like ‘Okay you’ve seen like a side of me that up until that point, I was intentionally keeping away, family and all the rest of it’.”
Broken By Desire To Be Heavenly Sent was, for the most part, written in his parents’ shed during lockdown.
The album follows his critically acclaimed 2019 debut album Divinely Uninspired To A Hellish Extent, which emerged as the biggest-selling UK album of both 2019 and 2020.
And in addition, the singer is also touring, heading to Australia and New Zealand in July, with August dates in the diary for Reading and Leeds festival back on home soil.
“It was a weird time,” he says of lockdown. “I don’t know how it impacted the writing, I guess it just made me feel like ‘Oh, I have to do this now’.
“It was the only thing that I could do really was sit in and write, so that’s why a lot of the stories come from a very similar place. “I probably would never have written about my mental health, having not been in that situation where you ruminate for so long and there’s nothing to do and everyone’s in the house. “That’s when you start to actually address some things because you’re forced to, so I think that’s been a factor.”
Last year he revealed that he has Tourette’s syndrome and had previously received Botox treatment in his shoulder to help control his tics. Opening up about the diagnosis during an Instagram Live, he explained he was still learning about the condition.
Asked about the new album and his thought process going into it, he’s clear on the messaging: “I just want to write good songs. I think that’s my aim all the time.”
“Some of the reactions to some of the songs has been really special. I’m glad to have it out.
“I didn’t chart a musical path, I just let all the songs be what they were going to be and that’s why I think you get the classic me moaning about relationships. Stuff about mental health, and you get a song that is very 80s.”
He cites the conversation he had on Dragons’ Den star Steven Bartlett’s Diary of a CEO podcast as “the first time I’ve ever felt like people understood what I was talking about when I was talking about mental health because everything I’d seen online or spoken about by other people, I just couldn’t relate to what they were saying.
“And that’s not me saying that other people are disingenuous, I’ve just never really seen someone pinpoint what I was talking about, or what I felt like at least until I said it and then I had other people online, being like ‘Oh, I do this exact same thing as he does’, it was almost therapeutic for me to be like ‘Oh, I’m not mental, other people are experiencing this’.
“The pool of people in the world who are going to make a documentary about their mental health is so small. Don’t look to celebrities for your kinship in your struggles with mental health, it’s the people around you that are going to understand what you’re going through more than anything else.
“That’s what I found, in making the documentary. I am not special at all in my suffering and that’s a very comforting thing.”
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HIS NEW ALBUM, MENTAL HEALTH, AND THE REACTION
I almost feel closer to people that listen to my music now Lewis Capaldi