After years of fighting a devastating legal war and her own demons, Kesha opens up about taking her life back
Kesha opens up about ongoing legal battles, past pain and taking back her life!
Kesha called it “the scariest day of my life.” It wasn’t when she confessed to her mom that she had an eating disorder and needed help. It wasn’t the day she filed a lawsuit against her former producer Dr. Luke, alleging sexual battery and years of emotional abuse (which he’s denied). According to the singer, it was Jan. 28, 2018, when she hit the Grammys stage to perform “Praying,” which has become an anthem for survivors of sexual assault. Kesha felt she had to prove, she said, “that I deserved to be there.”
She did, earning a thunderous standing ovat ion from music’s big- gest names. Now, after more than three years embroiled in a bitter legal fight, Kesha (whose full name is Kesha Rose Sebert) is opening up about the trauma she’s endured and what it feels like to come out the other side. “Kesha wants to help women who’ve been in similar situations,” an insider tells Life & Style. “She’s putting her fame to good use by publicly speaking out about what she’s been through, to encourage others who have been sexually harassed to be strong enough to come forward and realize they’re not alone.” Though “the litigation is still ongoing,” she told CBS Sunday Morning in early May — and though Dr. Luke continues to strongly deny her claims — Kesha says she finally believes she’s in a place where she can “live free,” the message she’s spelled out on her new knuckle tattoos. “I feel,” she says, “like I took my life back.”
But she also feels like an outsider. Despite earning raves for her deeply personal Grammy-nominated 2017 album Rainbow — her first without Dr. Luke’s input — she’s still involved in what so far has been a losing battle to prove her claims and be released from her contract with the producer and record exec, 44, who countersued her for defamation in 2014. “I [still] don’t feel like I fit in anywhere, really,” Kesha admits. It’s been a struggle for the singer, 31, who “has been to hell and back over the past few years,” explains the insider. While working with Dr. Luke (real name: Lukasz Gottwald),
“Her self-esteem hit rock bottom, which led to anxiety, depression and bulimia,” the insider says. “She’d put on a confident and strong front, but the reality is she was in a lot of emotional pain as her life spiraled out of control.”
She regained a measure of that control in 2014 when she sought help for the eating disorder she claims Luke encouraged. “I just, like, hated myself so much. I had so much sadness,” Kesha recently said. “I was in such a dark hole of a place.” The same year, she took him to court. But the lawsuits “made her anxiety even worse,” says the insider, especially after a judge dismissed large parts of her case and Dr. Luke publicly branded her a liar. “There’s only so much,” Kesha notes, “somebody can take.” She finally made a decision to let her lawyers “deal with it,” she says, and refocus on her music. Buoyed by the support of her fans, friends and A-listers like Taylor Swift, Adele, Lady Gaga and Cyndi Lauper, she made Rainbow — and says it “quite literally saved my life.” Kesha “really feels loved,” notes the insider, “and that love has made her stronger.”
Now she’s gearing up for a summer tour, her first in five years, in support of her life-changing album. “It’s really helped Kesha gain back her confidence. She can’t stop telling friends how excited she is to hit the road and how she’ll never let anyone hurt her again,” says the insider. Her hope is simply to “be happy,” she recently said, “because I feel like that’s winning. That’s winning everything.”
It was the split no one saw coming. Back in September 2016, Angelina Jolie dropped one of Hollywood’s biggest bombshells when she abruptly filed for divorce from Brad Pitt. While things started out ugly, Brad and Angelina agreed — for the sake of their six children — to try to make the legal uncoupling as quick and painless as possible. It hasn’t turned out that way. Nearly two years later, the divorce still hasn’t been finalized. Though an insider says both Brad and Angelina are “eager to get on with their new and separate lives,” Life & Style has exclusively learned that they can’t agree on a few key issues — and it’s keeping their divorce in an awkward holding pattern. “Brad keeps telling friends that they’re inches away from signing off on an agreement,” another source says, “but then a new wrinkle develops.”
CAN THEY COMPROMISE?
From the start, the main sticking point has been the kids. When Angelina, 42, first filed for divorce, she demanded sole custody of Maddox, 16, Pax, 14, Zahara, 13, Shiloh, 11, and twins Vivienne and Knox, 9, citing Brad’s drinking and the infamous incident in which he lost his temper with Maddox during an argument on their private plane. Brad, 54, has since gotten sober and embraced a healthier lifestyle — and he refuses to accept
a situation in which his time with his kids is curtailed. “Brad’s goal is joint physical and legal custody,” the source says. “But Angelina has been immovable on that point.”
The other ongoing battle is over one piece of property: the Château Miraval estate and vineyard in France, which Brad and Angelina purchased together before their 2014 marriage on the estate’s grounds. In recent years, it’s netted them a fortune thanks to the success of Miraval rosé wine and olive oil. “Angelina has been pushing Brad to sell the estate and give her half the money, but he wants to keep it,” the insider says. “Brad has really loved renovating the buildings on the grounds and working with the vintner and olive oil maker. He’s there for every harvest, and he wants to keep the legacy going.” It is, the insider adds, “the one possession he’s intent on hanging on to. It’s his baby.”
Brad and Angie both want to move on. He’s been dating MIT architecture professor Neri Oxman, 42, and Angie’s been secretly seeing a British millionaire, as Life & Style has reported. Friends of the former couple believe they’re getting close to solving their issues, especially the ones relating to the kids. “Angelina might not end up giving Brad joint custody, but she’s trying to work out a compromise,” the insider says. “They are both ready to focus on new projects and pursue other love interests. They just have to work out the fine points.”