New York Post

PORN STAR'S BORN IDENTITY

Actress’ film about hunt for biological mom

- By LORENA MONGELLI and BRUCE GOLDING

She went bare naked for a series of ’70s skin flicks, and now Candida Royalle is baring her soul.

The cancerstri­cken expornstar is working on a documentar­y about her search for her birth mother, who left her when she was just 18 months old.

Royalle, 63, who lives on Long Island’s North Fork, told The Post she hoped that finding her mother would answer “a burning question for me’’ — why she was abandoned.

“Nothing replaces a mother’s love,” Royalle said, “and there is nothing worse than thinking your mother didn’t want you.”

Royalle, who has been battling stage III ovarian cancer for the past four years, found out about her birth mother with the help of a private detective but says she doesn’t want to reveal any details yet. She’s saving that for her planned documentar­y — “While You Were Gone: The Untold Story of Candida Royalle,” for which she is raising money online.

Royalle — who spoke on condition her real name not be revealed because she’s been stalked — was raised in New York City by her dad and stepmother, who both died more than a decade ago. She trained as a dancer before moving to San Francisco, where she was working as a nude model when she got offered a part in a porn movie.

Initially insulted, she changed her mind after visiting a film set, going on to appear in about two dozen Xrated movies from the socalled Golden Age of Porn, including “Thoroughly Amorous Amy,” “Kinky Tricks” and “Hot & Saucy Pizza Girls.”

She later stepped behind the camera to direct with her Femme Production­s, which specialize­s in “femalecent­ric erotic cinema” that’s less graphic than traditiona­l porn.

Royalle also penned the 2006 book “How to Tell a Naked Man What to Do: Sex Advice from a Woman Who Knows” and has given lectures on sexuality.

But Royalle kept secret the trauma that’s haunted her since childhood.

“When you grow up without even a memory, it’s like she wasn’t even real,” Royalle said of her mother. “There wasn’t a birthday that went by that I didn’t think of her.”

The onetime porn princess said she first tried to locate her mother about 10 years ago, without any suc cess. But this past spring, she hired a detective who quickly solved the mystery, and also found her longlost halfbrothe­r and uncle, as well as a halfsister she didn’t know existed.

As of Sunday, a Kickstarte­r campaign by documentar­y director Sheona McDonald had raised about $43,000 to finance the movie.

 ??  ?? ABANDONED: Cancer-stricken former porn star Candida Royalle (above, in 1988; inset right, today) is raising money for a documentar­y about her search for her birth mom (inset left, in the 1940s), who left her when she was a tot.
ABANDONED: Cancer-stricken former porn star Candida Royalle (above, in 1988; inset right, today) is raising money for a documentar­y about her search for her birth mom (inset left, in the 1940s), who left her when she was a tot.

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