Heti borrows from her life to feed her fiction
New book unfolds in ‘surprising way’ with father’s death
In her poignant and imaginative new novel, “Pure Colour,” Sheila Heti opens with an unusual concept: Humans are bears, fish or birds.
Those who care most about their closest relationships are bears. People focused on the common good are fish. And those most preoccupied by beauty and aesthetics are birds.
“People born from these three different eggs will never completely understand each other,” Heti writes, but “fish, birds and bears are all equally important in the eye of God.”
It is an idea she has been turning over in her mind for the better part of 15 years. When she was writing “How Should a Person Be?” — her breakout novel — more than a decade ago, she envisioned the possibility that “God was three art critics in the sky,” she said.
Criticism figures prominently in Heti’s worldview (“I think the critic is trying to keep bad art out of art history”) as well as “Pure Colour,” which Farrar, Straus & Giroux recently published. Heti, 45, initially set out to write a novel about art criticism, and traces of her original project flicker across the book.
Her protagonist, Mira, a young woman living in a “first draft of existence,” enrolls in a prestigious critics training academy, where inchoate writers learn how to think. (Mira, it should be said, is a bird.)
As a student, Mira encounters and falls in
love with a young woman named Annie. But Mira’s most complicated relationship is with her father, who introduces her to the beauty and mystery of the world, and whose love she both cherished and found stifling.
“Mira craved to live a cold ice bath of a life,” Heti writes. “It had been hard to be held so closely by the most bearish bear.”
Once her father dies, however, the story’s heart skips a beat. Mira, who had been so certain of her path and her desires, reconsiders her choices. Her father’s soul transforms into a leaf, and Mira joins him there for a time, weighing whether to stay suspended in the comfort of his closeness or return to living a full life.
Heti did not intend to write a book about loss. In 2018, as she was drafting “Pure Colour,” her father died, and she began writing about her experiences and emotions in longhand, separate from the novel.
It wasn’t until she looked back at what she wrote months later that she realized it belonged in what became “Pure Colour.”
“I’ve never had a book unfold for me in such a surprising way,” she said.
Heti, the author of 10 books, is accustomed to borrowing from her own life to feed her fiction.
Her two most recent novels, “Motherhood,” about a woman’s decision whether to have a child, and “How Should a Person Be?,” feature protagonists who are Canadian writers. They are questioning and restless and look outside themselves — to their friends, to art, to the I Ching — for answers.
Reconstituted email exchanges and relayed conversations often appear in Heti’s work, inviting comparisons to autofiction writers such as Rachel Cusk and Ben Lerner.
“She understands what it takes to examine and make something out of nothing,” author and artist Leanne Shapton, a friend of Heti’s who has collaborated with her on several illustrated projects, wrote in an email. “That sometimes making work is like giving CPR to a drowning victim for 36 hours, or months, straight. Whether it lives or dies, she’s there.”
Heti grew up in Toronto, the daughter of Hungarian Jewish parents, and Jewish theology and history shapes much of her work. She studied art history and philosophy at the University of Toronto after leaving the National Theatre School of Canada, where she seriously considered becoming a playwright. (Playwriting once appealed to her more than writing novels, she has said, which “seemed the most boring possible thing you could do.”)
Her first book, a collection of fablelike tales called “The Middle Stories,” was published in 2001, when she was 24. Her 2005 novel,
“Ticknor,” was inspired by the real-life friendship between 19th-century authors William Hickling Prescott and George Ticknor.
But with “How Should a Person Be?,” released in the United States in 2012, Heti began “thinking about the novel from scratch and what writing was for me,” she said. Even though she had already written two books, “I had so many very basic questions that I felt I needed to answer.”
Her friendship with painter Margaux Williamson — along with remembered
conversations and scenes from her life — form the backbone of “How Should a Person Be?,” which is divided into acts like a play and explores how the two women arranged their lives as artists.
“In her work, she’s used herself as the fool; she’s practiced at being selfdeprecating,” Williamson said. “But what Sheila’s doing is acknowledging the ego that’s present in every creative work and getting it out of the way.”
In Heti’s earlier books, readers see characters
in the world engaging in philosophical or aesthetic jousts, at parties, in conversation with friends. The characters in those novels don’t tend to linger in discomfort: Scenes and moods change quickly.
But readers of “Pure Colour” stay with Mira through some wrenching emotion.
Part of the change, Heti said, comes from her “becoming less afraid of feeling things.” With an experience as all-encompassing as grief, “there isn’t really a way of running away from it.”