Keep trusting God while waiting for your miracle to happen

God interrupted my prayer time on March 3, O019, to tell me that He was going to use me in the miraculous. When I reminded Him that I am legally blind and asked how He could possibly use me, He simply said, “freely you have received, freely give.” In that moment, I knew in my heart (and it was later confirmed in other ways) that God was going to heal my eyes. From that point on, I began to eagerly believe for God to do the impossible.

Over the last year or so, however, I’ve begun to notice a decline in my overall excitement when it comes to the promise that God has given me. Since I’ve not been spending much time joyfully pondering and declaring my coming miracle, I’ve wondered if I’m losing my grip on the faith that God is going to heal me.

One day, after wrestling with these thoughts, I began to ask myself what it really looks like to believe God. Was the father of our faith, Abraham, bubbling over with joy as he daily rehearsed the promise of offspring for the entire O5 years that it took for Isaac to arrive? What about the 13 years that Joseph spent in slavery waiting for the dream that God had given him to come true? Or the 15 or so years that David waited to become king after Samuel had anointed him — many years of which he was running for his life? Is it practical to think that these mighty men of God were giddy with excitement the entire time that they waited for their promises to come to pass? Or, is it more likely that they just lived their lives with a calm and confident expectation that when the timing was right, God would make it happen?

While we don’t know exactly what these men thought or felt at any given time, I imagine that — though their faith in God never waivered — they, like us, had moments when their enthusiasm for the fulfillment of the promise was dulled by the drudgery of everyday life. It’s unrealistic to think that they constantly rejoiced over — or even thought about — the promise that God had given them. vet, we are told that they believed God.

So, why is it that I feel like I’m lacking faith, just because I haven’t been daily pushing to see the manifestation of my miracle? Do miracles come because we keep ourselves worked up, or do they come as a result of God’s grace as we judge Him faithful to keep His promises?

Now, don’t get me wrong, I know that we need to make it a point to spend time building up our faith by rehearsing the spoken and written promises of God over our lives. He wants us to believe what He says and to expect an immediate response. However, the ways that we express that belief may not always look the same in every season of our lives.

I have come to realize that, for me, even in the times when I’m not thinking about or celebrating my coming miracle, what I believe still hasn’t changed. I may be using most of my energy on something else, but I remain in a state of expectancy — believing that God is going to keep His promise to me.

The enemy would like nothing more than for us to give up on God’s promises, assuming that we’re losing ground, just because we’re not feeling it. He wants to convince us that we just can’t hold on until the end, so it’s pointless even try.

I don’t know about you, but I’ve seen the goodness of God enough to know that I can trust Him. I’ve come to understand that no matter how I feel about it, God’s grace and my decision to believe is all that is required for me to have great faith.

Don’t let the enemy talk you out of trusting God today because you feel like your faith is low. Remember that how you feel about things isn’t usually the reality. Think about what God has already done for you, and continue choosing to trust Him.

It is our consistent choice to believe, not our level of excitement, that truly measures the depth of our faith. ••• Milligan is a Poteau resident who went on a mission trip to Guatemala just before Labor Day.