What I am thankful for

I felt the need to write a few things I am grateful for today. Lately I have felt like I was living through things that I didn’t think I could possibly ever feel like a normal person with a normal life. Things were falling apart in my personal life due to not only choices I made, but others as well, and that was affecting my relationships with everyone around me. I found myself crying myself to sleep wondering, “What should I do?! How on earth is everything ever going to feel better again?”

Laying in bed one afternoon, I called my little 6-year-old son, who by the way is the only one out of my four kids that will still cuddle with me, into my room, and I said, “Axel, let’s watch a movie together, you pick.” Of course, we ended up watching the most boring thing ever. However, once the movie started, he put his arms around me and said in his still-adorable voice, “I love you, Mommy.” My heart melted and I started crying. No matter what I was going through, this little boy loves me. I mean, I did ignore the fact that the second sentence was, “Can I have some Oreos and a soda?” Putting together all the messed up things that can go wrong, what is right is those four beautiful kids that at times make me hide and eat junk in my room, or they wake me up because they are bored. They are what I need to get through whatever comes my way. I can’t fail them, for that I am so grateful.

Katrina Espinoza Springville