O’Connor was broken man

Reds star reveals how desperate he was in 2015

RUGBY UNION: James O’Connor can now admit he ran away from the Queensland Reds in 2015 because the pressure was suffocating and he fell so far short of his own expectations.

Fans are celebrating his five-star form last Saturday night because of the wise direction and passing skill that ignited the 10-try rout of Japan’s Sunwolves.

The “win” that O’Connor feels is far more personal because finding peace and purpose is feeding a new maturity with the right balance of healthy life and rugby.

No one could miss the smile on his face after his own strong running game (eight dashes for 97m) because a fit body is cooperating.

His try at Suncorp Stadium was his first in a Reds jersey because his hit-and-run 2015 season fizzled out as a tryless, 12game campaign.

He finished more of an outsider for 2015 World Cup selection than when he started that season.

It hurt deeply because his renowned acceleration was gone and he couldn’t produce his best because of a hidden knee ligament tear.

“I escaped. I felt pressure from everywhere and couldn’t handle it here (in 2015) so I left and went back to France,” O’Connor said.

“I was a broken man and not performing at the level I knew I could was just one thing.

“(Then-chief executive) Jim Carmichael told me one day he had 40 emails from people who had seen me out and about in Brisbane.”

O’Connor was living in the James Street wine bar precinct in New Farm and felt unfairly characterised.

“At that stage I wasn’t even partying and was wondering, ‘why are people after me?’,” O’Connor said.

“I’ve a new awareness now, don’t care about that stuff and don’t need to hide anything.”

More powerful redemption lies ahead.

Playing the Sharks at Suncorp Stadium on Saturday night will be a chance to remedy the lowest point of 2015.

It was against the Durbanbased side that his clearing kick howler travelled just 10m into the hands of an injured Shark who literally limped three strides to score the game-clinching try.

The new O’Connor isn’t getting carried away after surprisingly finding himself at No.10 when Reds coach Brad Thorn wanted an experienced head there.

“Me being at No.10 has just unfolded that way,” O’Connor told Fox Sports.

“I’m not going to lie, I’m enjoying it but I’m still learning a lot, so go easy on me.”