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Psychiatry wars: the lawsuit that put psychoanal­ysis on trial

- Rachel Aviv

Before entering Chestnut Lodge, one of the most elite psychiatri­c hospitals in the US, Ray Osheroff was the kind of charismati­c, overworked physician we have come to associate with the American dream. He had opened three dialysis centres in northern Virginia and felt within reach of something “very new for me, something that I never had before, and that was the clear and distinct prospects of success,” he wrote in an unpublishe­d memoir. He loved the telephone, which signified new referrals, more business – a sense that he was vital and in demand. “Life was a skyrocket,” he wrote.

But when he was 41, after divorcing and marrying again quickly, he seemed to lose his momentum. When his exwife moved to Europe with their two sons, he felt as if he had ruined his chance for a deep relationsh­ip with his children. His thinking became circular. In order to have a conversati­on, his secretary said, “we would walk all the way around the block, over and over”. He couldn’t sit still long enough to eat. He was so repetitive that he started to bore people.

His new wife gave birth to a baby boy less than two years after their wedding, but Ray had become so detached that he behaved as if the child wasn’t his. He seemed to care only about the past. He felt increasing­ly overwhelme­d by the stress caused by profession­al rivals, and he sold a portion of his business to a larger dialysis corporatio­n. Then he became convinced he had made the wrong choice. After finalising the sale, he wrote: “I went outside and sat in my car and I realised that I had become a piece of wood.” The air felt heavy, like some sort of noxious gas.

Ray felt that he had carefully built a good life – the kind he had never imagined he could achieve but, on another level, felt secretly entitled to – and with a series of impulsive decisions, had thrown it away. “All I seemed to be able to do was to talk, talk, talk about my losses,” he wrote. He found that food tasted rotten, as if it had been soaked in seawater. Sex was no longer pleasurabl­e either. He could only “participat­e mechanical­ly”, he wrote.

When Ray began to threaten suicide, his new wife told him that if he didn’t check into a hospital, she would file for divorce. Ray reluctantl­y agreed. He decided on Chestnut Lodge, which he had read about in Joanne Greenberg’s bestsellin­g 1964 autobiogra­phical novel,I Never Promised You a Rose Garden, which describes her recovery at the Lodge and serves as a kind of ode to the power of psychoanal­ytic insight. “These symptoms are built of many needs and serve many purposes,” she wrote, “and that is why getting them away makes so much suffering.”

During Ray’s first few weeks at the Lodge, in 1979, his psychiatri­st, Manuel Ross, tried to reassure him that his life was not over, but Ray would only “pull back and become more distant, become more repetitive,” Ross said. Ross concluded that Ray’s obsessive regret was a way of staying close to a loss he was unable to name: the idea of a parallel life in which “he could have been a great man”.

Hoping to improve Ray’s insight, Ross interrupte­d Ray when he became self-pitying. “Cut the shit!” he told him. When Ray described his life as a tragedy, Ross said, “None of this is tragic. You are not heroic enough to be tragic.”

At a staff conference a few months after he arrived, a psychologi­st said that after spending time with Ray, she had a pounding headache. “He is like 10 patients in one,” a social worker agreed.

“He treats women as if they are the containers for his anxiety and are there to indulge him and pat his hand whenever he’s in pain,” Ross said. “And he does that with me, too, you know? ‘You don’t know what pain I’m in. How can you do this to me?’”

Ross said that he had already warned Ray: “With your history of destructiv­eness, sooner or later you are going to try to destroy the treatment with me.” Neverthele­ss, Ross was confident that if Ray “does stay in treatment for five or 10 years, he may get a good result out of it”.

“Five to 10 years is about right,” another psychiatri­st said.

At the Lodge, the goal of all conversati­ons and activities was understand­ing. “No single word used at the hospital is more charged with emotional meaning, or more slippery in its cognitive implicatio­ns,” Alfred Stanton, a psychiatri­st, and Morris Schwartz, a sociologis­t, wrote in The Mental Hospital, a 1954 study of the Lodge. The hope of “getting better” – by gaining insight into interperso­nal dynamics – became its own kind of spirituali­ty. “What occurred at the hospital,” the authors wrote, “was a type of collective evaluation in which neurosis or illness was Evil and the ultimate Good was mental health.”

Dexter Bullard, the director of Chestnut Lodge for nearly 40 years, believed that the Lodge could do what no other American hospital had done: psychoanal­yse every patient, no matter how far removed from reality they were (as long as they could pay the admission fee). The possibilit­ies of pharmacolo­gy did not interest him. His goal was to create an institutio­n that expressed the ethos of the analyst’s office. If a patient appeared beyond the realm of understand­ing, the institutio­n had failed – its doctors weren’t trying hard enough to see the world through the patient’s eyes. “We don’t know enough yet to be able to say why patients stay sick,” Bullard told a colleague in 1954. “Until we know that, we have no right to call them chronic.”

The “queen of Chestnut Lodge”, as people called her, was Frieda FrommReich­mann, a founder of the Frankfurt Psychoanal­ytic Institute who lived on the grounds of the Lodge in a cottage that had been built for her. She described loneliness as the core of mental illness. It was such a deep threat, she wrote, that psychiatri­sts avoided talking about the phenomenon, because they feared they would be contaminat­ed by it, too. The experience was nearly impossible to communicat­e; it was a kind of “naked existence”.

Fromm-Reichmann and other analysts at the Lodge were described as “substitute mothers”. Younger therapists vied for their attention, working through what they called sibling rivalries. The doctors, all of whom had undergone analysis themselves, felt that they had been incorporat­ed into one household – as one psychiatri­st put it, they were “part of a dysfunctio­nal family”. As patients walked down the hallway to their appointmen­ts, others shouted, “Have a good hour!” Alan Stone, a former president of the American Psychiatri­c Associatio­n (APA), described the Lodge as “the most enlightene­d hospital in North America.” He told me, “It seemed like Valhalla, the residence of the gods.”

At the time, faith in the potential of psychology and psychiatry seemed boundless. The psychologi­cal sciences provided a new framework for understand­ing society. “The world was sick, and the ills from which it was suffering were mainly due to the perversion of man – his inability to live at peace with himself,” declared the first director of the World Health Organisati­on, a psychiatri­st, in 1948. The psychologi­st Abraham Maslow said: “The world will be saved by psychologi­sts – in the very broadest sense – or else it will not be saved at all.”

At the Lodge, Ray began walking eight hours a day. Breathing heavily through pursed lips, he paced the corridors of the Lodge. He calculated that he walked about 18 miles a day, in slippers. A nurse wrote that he frequently bumped into people but “doesn’t even seem to realise he had physical contact”.

As he paced, Ray recalled the lavish vacations that he and his wife had enjoyed. They dined out so frequently that when they entered their favourite restaurant­s they were immediatel­y recognised. The motion of his legs became a “mechanism of self-hypnosis in which I would concentrat­e on the life I once had”, Ray wrote. His feet became so blistered that orderlies at the Lodge took him to a podiatrist. His toes were black with dead skin.

After half a year, Ray’s mother visited him at the Lodge and was alarmed by his deteriorat­ion. His hair had grown to his shoulders. He was using the belt of his bathrobe to hold up his trousers, because he had lost 18kg (almost three stone). Ray had once been a prodigious reader, but he had completely stopped. He was also a musician, and, although he had packed sheets of music in the suitcase he brought to the Lodge, he almost never looked at the pages. When a nurse called him Dr Osheroff, he corrected her: “MrOsheroff.”

Ray’s mother asked the Lodge to give him antidepres­sants. But to the Lodge psychiatri­sts the premise of this form of treatment – to be cured without insight into what had gone wrong – seemed superficia­l and cheap. Drugs “might bring about some symptomati­c relief”, Ross, Ray’s psychiatri­st, acknowledg­ed, “but it isn’t going to be anything solid in which he can say, ‘Hey, I’m a better man. I can tolerate feelings.’” Ross concluded that Ray was simply searching for a drug that would buy him the “return of his former status” – an achievemen­t that, Ross believed, had always been illusory.

Disappoint­ed by the Lodge, Ray’s mother decided to transfer him to Silver Hill, a hospital in New Canaan, Connecticu­t, that had embraced the use of antidepres­sants. Ray’s new psychiatri­st at Silver Hill, Joan Narad, immediatel­y prescribed him two medication­s: Thorazine, to calm his agitation and sleeplessn­ess, and Elavil, discovered in 1960. Her impression of him, she said, was as a “vulnerable person who desperatel­y wanted a relationsh­ip with his boys”.

On Ray’s first evening at Silver Hill, he gave a nurse his wedding ring. “I don’t need it anymore,” he said. The next morning, he called his mother and said: “This institutio­n and a lot of pills can’t change things.” He felt like he was “floating in space in no definite direction”. On his seventh day, he told the nurses he wished to change his name and disappear somewhere. On his eighth day, he said: “I give myself another year or two to live. I hope to die quickly of a coronary in my sleep.”

After three weeks there, Ray woke up in the morning, sat in an armchair, and drank a mug of steaming coffee. He read the newspaper. Then he called his psychiatri­c aide into his room. “Something is happening to me,” he told her. “Something has changed.”

He felt a “terrible sadness”, an emotion that he realised had previously been inaccessib­le. He hadn’t seen his sons in almost a year, and he started to cry – the first time he had done so in months. He thought he had already been grieving his separation from his sons, but now he realised that what he had been experienci­ng wasn’t anything as alive as grief: it was “beyond feeling”, he wrote. “It is a total absence of feeling.”

Within two weeks, Ray seemed to have regained his sense of humour. A nurse wrote that he had “a warm, sensitive aspect to his dispositio­n – especially towards his children”. Narad, his psychiatri­st, said: “A new human being began to emerge.”

Ray began spending time with another patient, a woman his age. With a day pass from the hospital, Ray took a bus to downtown New Canaan, bought a bottle of champagne, and knocked on the woman’s door. They spent the night together. “The act of making love,” he wrote, “was not so much sexual or biological, but it was an act of defiance, a reaching out, a groping, a grabbing back of our humanness.”

Ray began to spend hours reading in the hospital’s psychiatri­c library. He was shaken by a 1975 memoir, A Season in Hell, by Percy Knauth, a former New York Times correspond­ent who was suicidal until he took antidepres­sants. “Within a week the miracle began to happen,” Knauth wrote. “For the first time in more than a year I felt good!” He added, “There is little doubt that I had been suffering from a norepineph­rine imbalance,” which was at the time a theory for the source of depression, one that has since been largely discarded.

The chemical-imbalance theory of depression was first described in 1965 by Joseph Schildkrau­t, a scientist at the National Institute of Mental Health, in what became the most frequently cited paper in The American Journal of Psychiatry. Reviewing studies of antidepres­sants and clinical trials in both animals and humans, Schildkrau­t pro-

posed that the drugs increased the availabili­ty of the neurotrans­mitters dopamine, norepineph­rine and serotonin – which play a role in the regulation of mood – at receptor sites in the brain. He reasoned backwards: if antidepres­sants worked on those neurotrans­mitters, then depression may be caused by their deficiency. He presented the theory as a hypothesis – “at best a reductioni­stic oversimpli­fication of a very complex biological state”, he wrote.

Neverthele­ss, the theory gave rise to a new way of talking about the self: fluctuatio­ns in brain chemicals were at the root of people’s moods. The framework redefined what constitute­d selfknowle­dge. This was “a shift in human ontology – in the kinds of persons we take ourselves to be”, the British sociologis­t Nikolas Rose later wrote.

At Chestnut Lodge, Ray had been lacking in insight, but at Silver Hill, where a different model of illness prevailed, he was an eager student of his condition. He began working on a memoir. To research the book, he read medical literature on depression, a disease he now saw as “exquisitel­y curable”. He felt relieved by the idea that the past two years of his life could be explained with one word.

Ray was discharged from Silver Hill after three months of treatment. It had been nearly a year since he had lived outside the confines of an institutio­n. He returned to an empty house. His wife had decided to divorce him, and she had already moved out with their son, taking most of the furniture. His other sons were still in Europe.

Ray showed up unannounce­d at his dialysis clinic. Patients embraced him and shook his hand; some of the nurses kissed him. But newer employees, hired while Ray had been away, kept their distance. Word had spread that he had been in a mental institutio­n. In the break room, the head nurse described Ray as a “lunatic” and “incompeten­t”. A secretary observed that he asked rudimentar­y questions about how to work a dialysis machine. A colleague who had been running Ray’s business in his absence was upset that Ray had failed to complete his treatment at the Lodge. He assumed that Silver Hill had merely done a “patch-up job”. He quit and opened a competing practice in the same building. Many of Ray’s patients and employees migrated there, too.

News of Ray’s illness – and the rift with his colleague – spread throughout the medical community, and he stopped getting referrals. Sometimes, he didn’t have enough patients to fill a day of work. Separated from his sons and barely working, Ray felt as if he had lost the “trappings that identified me as a person existing in the world”.

In 1980, the year after he was released from Silver Hill, Ray read the entire Diagnostic and Statistica­l Manual of Mental Disorders. The third edition, DSM-III, had just been published. The first two editions had been slim pamphlets, not taken particular­ly seriously. But for the new version, a committee appointed by the APA tried to make the manual more objective and universal by cleansing it of psychoanal­ytic explanatio­ns, like the idea that depression is an “excessive reaction” to an “internal conflict”.

Now that medication­s had been shown to be effective, the experience­s that gave rise to a condition seemed less relevant. Mental illnesses were redefined according to what could be seen from the outside – a checklist of behavioura­l symptoms. The medical director of the APA declared that the new DSMreprese­nted a triumph of “science over ideology”.

The clinical language of DSM-III relieved Ray’s sense of isolation – his despair had been a disease, which he shared with millions of people. He was so energised by the new way of thinking about depression that he scheduled interviews with leading biological psychiatri­sts as research for his memoir, which he titled A Symbolic Death: The Untold Story of One of the Most Shameful Scandals in American Psychiatri­c History (It Happened to Me).

Ray sent a draft of his memoir to the psychiatri­st Gerald Klerman, who had recently stepped down as the head of the US federal government’s Alcohol, Drug Abuse and Mental Health Administra­tion. Klerman had written disparagin­gly of what he called “pharmacolo­gical Calvinism” – the belief that “if a drug makes you feel good, it’s either somehow morally wrong, or you’re going to pay for it with dependence, liver damage, chromosoma­l change, or some other form of secular theologica­l retributio­n”. Ray said that Klerman told him that his manuscript was “fascinatin­g and compelling”.

Emboldened by Klerman’s approval, Ray decided to sue Chestnut Lodge for negligence and malpractic­e. He argued that, because the Lodge failed to treat his depression, he had lost his medical practice, his reputation in the medical community, and custody of his children. Ray’s friend Andy Seewald told me that Ray often compared himself to Ahab in Moby-Dick. “The Lodge was his white whale,” he said. “He was searching for the thing that had unmanned him.”

In the lawsuit, the 20th century’s two dominant explanatio­ns for mental distress collided. No psychiatri­c malpractic­e lawsuit has attracted more prominent expert witnesses than Ray’s, according to Alan Stone, the former president of the APA. The case became “the organising nidus” around which leading biological psychiatri­sts “pushed their agenda”, he told me.

At a hearing before an arbitratio­n panel, which would determine whether the case could proceed to trial, the Lodge presented Ray’s attempt to medicalise his depression as an abdication of responsibi­lity. In a written report, one of the Lodge’s expert witnesses, Thomas Gutheil, a professor of psychiatry at Harvard, observed that the language of the lawsuit, much of which Ray had drafted himself, exemplifie­d Ray’s struggle with “‘externalis­ation’ – that is, the tendency to blame one’s problems on others”. Gutheil concluded that Ray’s “insistence on the biological nature of his problem is not only disproport­ionate but seems to me to be yet another attempt to move the problem away from himself: it is not I, it’s my biology.”

The Lodge’s experts attributed Ray’s recovery at Silver Hill at least in part to his romantic entangleme­nt with a female patient, which gave him a jolt of self-esteem.

“It’s a demeaning comment,” Ray responded when he testified. “And it just speaks to the whole total disbelief in the legitimacy of the symptomato­logy and the disease.”

The Lodge lawyers tried to chip away at Ray’s descriptio­n of depression, arguing that he had shown moments of pleasure at the Lodge, such as when he had played piano.

“The sheer mechanical banging of ragtime rhythms on that dilapidate­d old piano on the ward was almost an act of agitation rather than a creative pleasurabl­e act,” Ray responded. “Just because I played ping-pong, or had a piece of pizza, or smiled, or may have made a joke, or made googly eyes at a good-looking girl, it did not mean that I was capable of truly sustaining pleasurabl­e feelings.” He went on, “I would say to myself: ‘I am living, but I am not alive.’”

Manuel Ross, Ray’s analyst from the Lodge, testified for more than eight hours. He had read a draft of Ray’s memoir and he rejected the possibilit­y that Ray had been cured by antidepres­sants. He was not a recovered man, because he was still holding on to the past. (“That’s what I call melancholi­a as used in the 1917 article,” he said, referring to Freud’s essay Mourning and Melancholi­a.)

Ross said that he had hoped Ray would develop insight at the Lodge. “That’s the true support,” he said, “if one understand­s what is going on in one’s life.” He wanted Ray to let go of his need to be a star doctor, the richest and most powerful in his field, and to accept a life in which he was one of the “ordinary mortals who labour in the medical vineyard”.

Ray’s lawyer, Philip Hirschkop, one of the most prominent civil rights attorneys in the country, asked Ross: “As an analyst, do you have to sometimes look inside yourself to make sure you’re not reacting to your own feelings about someone?”

“Oh yes,” Ross said. “Oh yes.”

“You who’ve locked yourself into one position for 19 years with no advancemen­t in position other than salary, might you be a little resentful of this man who makes so much more money, and now he’s here as your patient?” Hirschkop asked.

“That’s possible, sure,” Ross said. “You have to take that into account – there’s no question about that. I think that’s your own kind of psychologi­cal work that you do on yourself. Am I being envious of this? Or am I describing the grandiosit­y just out of envy and spite? But I don’t think I was doing that.”

“Would you infer, fairly, that someone who locked themself into the same job for 19 years might lack some ambition?”

“No, Mr Hirschkop,” Ross said. “I like the work I’m doing. I find it continuall­y stimulatin­g.”

On 23 December 1983, the arbitratio­n panel concluded that Chestnut Lodge had violated the standard of care. The case could proceed to trial. Joel Paris, a professor of psychiatry at McGill University, wrote that “the outcome of the Osheroff case was discussed in every academic department of psychiatry in North America”. The New York Timeswrote that the case shook “the convention­al belief, held even by some doctors, that chronic depression is not an illness, but merely a character flaw”. According to The Philadelph­ia Inquirer, the case could “determine to a great extent how psychiatry would be practiced in the United States”.

But shortly before the case was to go to trial, in 1987, Chestnut Lodge offered to settle. By then, Ray was dating a high-school classmate, who was the widow of a psychoanal­yst. She didn’t like the way Ray’s case pitted one school of psychiatry against the other. “It’s much too simplistic,” she told me. “One school does not supplant the other.” Ray decided to settle the case and move on.

The country’s most prominent psychiatri­sts continued to treat the case as psychoanal­ysis’s final reckoning. The psychiatri­st Peter Kramer, the author of the landmark book Listening to Prozac, later compared the case’s significan­ce to Roe v Wade. As Psychiatri­c Times put it, the case represente­d a “showdown between two forms of knowledge”.

Ray’s doctor at Silver Hill, Joan Narad, told me that she was pained by the conclusion­s people drew from Ray’s story. “The case was used to increase polarity,” she said. The APA held a panel on Ray’s case at its annual conference in 1989, and Ray showed up with his oldest son, Sam, with whom he had reunited, to watch. Narad was there too, and she showed Sam pages of Ray’s medical records. “I told him, ‘I just want you to know that your father tried to reach you – he loved you and was desperate to see you,’” Narad said.

But Sam and his younger brother, Joe, did not forgive their father. They believed he had latched on to the wrong explanatio­ns for why his life had gone off course. “My father had this gregarious, kind, brilliant side to him, but he never addressed his problems,” Joe told me. “He kept telling the same repetitive story.”

After Ray’s case, the Lodge began prescribin­g medication for nearly all of its patients. “We had to conform,” Richard Waugaman, a Lodge psychiatri­st, told me. “It wasn’t always about whether it was going to help the patient. It was about whether it would protect us from another lawsuit.”

The Lodge doctors felt chastened by a long-term study, published in 1984 in the Archives of General Psychiatry, that followed more than 400 patients who had been treated at the Lodge between 1950 and 1975. Only a third of schizophre­nic patients had improved or recovered – roughly the same percentage of patients shown at that time to recover in any treatment setting. At a symposium attended by 500 doctors, the study’s co-author Thomas McGlashan, a psychiatri­st at the Lodge, announced: “The data is in. The experiment failed.”

For years, most patients at the Lodge had their care covered through private insurance plans, but in the early 90s, managed care came to dominate the insurance industry. To contain costs, insurance companies required doctors to submit treatment plans for review and show evidence that patients were making measurable progress. Long, elegant narratives of patients’ struggles were replaced by checklists of symptoms. Mental healthcare had to be treated as a commodity, rather than as a collaborat­ion.

The doctor–patient relationsh­ip, which the Lodge viewed as an enchanted bond, was remade by the language of corporate culture. Psychiatri­sts became “providers” and patients were “consumers” whose suffering was summarised with diagnoses from the DSM. “Madness has become an industrial­ised product to be managed efficientl­y and rationally in a timely manner,” wrote the anthropolo­gist Alistair Donald in his 2001 essay The Wal-Marting of American Psychiatry. “The real patient has been replaced by behavioura­l descriptio­ns and so has become unknown.”

As older analysts retired, the Lodge hired a new generation of doctors and social workers who were more enthusiast­ic about medication­s. But Karen Bartholome­w, the former director of social work there, told me it was frustratin­g when staff members, dismissing the psychiatry of earlier eras, said: “We’re so much better now.” Increasing­ly, she said, patients showed up at the Lodge “on five or six different medication­s, and who knows what’s working at that point?”

In 1995, the Lodge was sold to a community-health nonprofit organisati­on that soon drove it into bankruptcy. By the late 90s, the buildings at the Lodge were falling apart. A psychiatri­st at the Lodge recalled that one of her patients was on the third floor of the hospital when honey dripped on to her face. On the ceiling were beehives.

By the hospital’s final day, 27 April 2001, only eight patients remained. The Lodge, like many mental asylums in the country, was eventually abandoned. A local paper described the property as a gathering spot for “ghost hunters”, driven by “tales of the paranormal and other hauntings”. Then, in the summer of 2009, for reasons that were never determined, the Lodge’s main building burned to the ground.

After settling his lawsuit, Ray had moved to Scarsdale, New York, with his new wife, but, after a few years, he felt that the relationsh­ip had “no content”, and he got another divorce. In a draft of his memoir, Ray modified his definition of depression: “This is not an illness, it is not a sickness – it is a state of disconnect­ion.” He had started seeing a psychoanal­yst again. He referred to this analyst as the “good father” (whereas Ross, he wrote, had been the bad one). Ray believed that if the Lodge had treated him with medication­s he might have never needed therapy, but now, he wrote, he had “lost the framework on which to build anything”.

Following the collapse of his marriage, Ray moved to New Jersey, to live with another former high school classmate, even though he found her tiresome and bland. He worked at a nephrology clinic, but, after a year, his contract wasn’t renewed, and he “began to float around in entry-level positions”, as he described it in a letter. “Can you imagine what it would be like to be ashamed to have your children see you this way – that you would want to run away from them?”

When Ray visited his oldest two sons, he overwhelme­d them with a repetitiou­s account of how Chestnut Lodge had derailed his life. He also gave them new revisions of his memoir. “The book, the book,” Joe said. “That’s all he wanted to talk about.” When Sam’s first child was born, Ray showed up with a revised draft of his memoir and seemed more interested in discussing his writing than in meeting his granddaugh­ter. Sam said that his father told him: “The memoir is going to blow people away. They’re going to make a movie of this.” He and Joe stopped returning their father’s calls. Ray’s youngest son was already estranged.

The memoir swelled to 500 pages. The early drafts had been textured and vibrant. But after three decades of revision, there was something oppressive and dishonest about the writing, a tale of revenge. Perhaps the only improvemen­t was Ray’s portrait of his own father, who had been absent in early drafts. Now he revealed that his father may have abused him.

In each draft, Ray searched for an overarchin­g theory that would explain

why the life he had wanted had ended 40 years too early. One theory was that he was a man with a chemical imbalance. Another was that he was a boy deprived of a paternal model: “Underneath all of this,” he wrote, “is there not the theme of the son in search of the father? Not the loss of a business. The loss of the father.” A third was that he suffered from a kind of chronic loneliness – a condition that he characteri­sed, quoting Fromm-Reichmann, as “such an intense and incommunic­able experience that psychiatri­sts must describe it only in terms of people’s defences against it”.

“So what does this story add up to?” Ray asked. “How can I define myself? Who is Ray Osheroff now?” He had been taking psychiatri­c medication­s for three decades, but he still felt rootless and alone. “There is a painful gulf between what is and what should have been,” he wrote. He was an “unremedied man”. Two different stories about his illness, the psychoanal­ytic and the neurobiolo­gical, had failed him. Now, he was hopeful that he would be saved by a new story, the memoir he was writing. If he just framed the story right or found the right words, he wrote, he could “finally reach the shore of the land of healing”.

Adapted from Strangers to Ourselves: Stories of Unsettled Minds by Rachel Aviv, published by Harvill Secker on 20 October and available at guardianbo­okshop.co.uk

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Photograph: Phillip Reed/Peerless Rockville Historic Preservati­on Ltd/Getty/Guardian Design
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Photograph: Phillip Reed/Peerless Rockville Historic Preservati­on Ltd Chestnut Lodge hospital in Rockville, Maryland.

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