‘I was as low as I could go’

Johnny Depp reveals how he almost came undone

Johnny Depp entered into a depression over his divorce to Amber Heard and crumbling financial situation.

In January 2017, the Pirates

of the Caribbean actor sued ex-managers Joel and Robert Mandel at The Management Group (TMG) for $25 million in damages, alleging fraud and negligence, claiming they mishandled his finances and caused him to rack up more than $40 million in debt. They responded with their own countersuit, claiming he was to blame because his spending was out of control.

Johnny became aware of his dire financial situation a few years before taking legal action, and during this time, he got divorced from his The

Rum Diary co-star Amber in 2016 amid allegations of domestic abuse.

In a new interview with

Rolling Stone magazine, the 55-year-old opened up about his emotional state during that period.

“I was as low as I believe I could have gotten,” he said. “The next step was, ‘You’re going to arrive somewhere with your eyes open and you’re going to leave there with your eyes closed.’ I couldn’t take the pain every day.”

He went on tour with the Hollywood Vampires, his band with Alice Cooper and

Joe Perry, and decided to write a memoir on an old typewriter.

“I poured myself a vodka in the morning and started writing until the tears filled my eyes and I couldn’t see the page anymore,” he said emotionally, wiping his eyes. “I kept trying to figure out what I’d done to deserve this. I’d tried being kind to everyone, helping everyone, being truthful to everyone ... The truth is most important to me. And all this still happened.”