Fox says struggles almost made him lose optimism
New memoir details spinal surgery challenges and return to positivity
“I think the first thing you have to do is accept if you’re faced with a difficult situation.”
MICHAEL J. FOX
Three images are visible on the wall behind Michael J. Fox as he sits in his New York City office during a Zoom call.
One is a photo of the star embracing his wife of 32 years, Tracy Pollan. Another is a painting by his 25-year-old daughter, Schuyler, of a stone arch in Utah. And the third is a portrait of the actor’s rescue dog, Gus.
“That’s the wonder dog,” Fox quips before his wife asks off camera whether Gus can come in and say hi. It’s not long before the black-and-white mutt lumbers into the office with a smiling Pollan beside him.
“I didn’t rescue Gus,” Fox, 59, writes in “No Time Like the Future: An Optimist Considers Mortality,” his latest memoir, which was released on Tuesday. “You can argue that he rescued me, but he’d be too modest to make that claim.”
This is the beloved canine who, along with Fox’s wife and four adult kids, supported the actor as he recovered from a risky spinal surgery in 2018 that forced him to relearn how to walk, as well as a devastating fall shortly after that, which left the “Back to the Future” star stranded on his kitchen floor with a broken arm.
“I was lying on the floor in my kitchen with a shattered arm waiting for the ambulance to show up,” Fox says. “I kind of went, ‘What an idiot. All this time you’ve been telling everybody to be optimistic, chin up, and you’re miserable now. There’s nothing but pain and regret. There’s no way to put a shine on this.’ ”
It’s this fall that kicks off Fox’s book, in which the actor goes on to detail his harrowing recovery from spinal surgery, insights from his battle with Parkinson’s disease, and his return to positivity after, quite literally, falling into despair.
“That was a real breakthrough moment for me because I realized that I’ve been selling that optimism to people for so long,” he continues.
“I believe it’s true to my core, but it struck me that, at that point, I questioned it, and I questioned it really severely. And so the rest of the book is this journey through finding my way back with gratitude. And I think gratitude is what makes optimism sustainable.”
Fox didn’t know what health challenges awaited him when he first started writing “No Time Like the Future,” which he originally intended to be about discovering his love of golf in middle age, decades after being diagnosed with Parkinson’s at age 29.
That plan changed when the actor learned he had a tumour on his spine that, left untreated, could cause him to lose feeling in his legs. A surgery to remove it also carried risk: the slightest of errors and Fox could have woken up paralyzed.
Of all the trials detailed in his book, Fox says waiting for this surgery was the scariest.
“I had this fear of waking up and my life being severely different,” he says. “A lot of surgeons didn’t want to touch it because it just seemed like a no-win. It was very risky.”
Despite conflicting advice from medical professionals, Fox decided to have the surgery and even used his sense of humour to help him pick the person for the job.
“I said, ‘You know, a lot of doctors don’t want to do this.’ ” Fox recalls of his meeting with Dr. Nicholas Theodore, director of the Neurosurgical Spine Center at Johns Hopkins in Baltimore. “And he said, ‘I understand why.’ And then he leaned in and he said, ‘Who wants to be the one who paralyzes Michael J. Fox?’ And I said, ‘If you have the balls to say that to me, you’re gonna need to be my surgeon.’ ”
Despite the dark situations in his book, the Edmonton-born Fox never loses his sense of humour, something the actor says he and his wife have used to cope with challenges throughout their marriage.
“We deal with what’s funny in the situation at first,” Fox says. “We laugh about it and then we deal with it. But always humour. Humour is the filter for everything.”
Through his recovery, falling and then needing to recover again, Fox says he realized the importance of being realistic while still optimistic. In fact, the actor says acknowledging bleak realities is the first step to improving your state of mind.
“I think the first thing you have to do is accept if you’re faced with a difficult situation,” he says. “And once I do that, that doesn’t mean I can’t ever change it. I can change it, but I have to accept it for what it is first, before I can change it. And I have to be real about it. And once I do that, then it opens all doors.”
It’s a message he hopes resonates with Americans in the midst of an ongoing pandemic and a political climate that feels increasingly divided. After all, as Fox learned after his fall, “life gets better the more you decide to take it easy on yourself.”
“Just give yourself a break and, by that token, give the people in your life a break,” he adds. “Give your neighbour a break. Give the person who bags your groceries a break. Just give everybody a break. Give them the benefit of the doubt and move on.”