The lunge for the tape
Abirthday – even an 87th birthday which is leaving it a bit late in the day – is a good time to see if there are any aspects of life which need some sort of reassessment. After all a few months at this age may very well be more valuable than ever – just as the lunge for the tape in a race can make all the difference.
My recent birthday finds me still poised, as I have been for quite some time, between two opposing inclinations. One is to relax, withdraw from the hustle and the hurly-burly and the frustrating daily effort to get things done and sink into reclusive peace and quiet. The other inclination is to go on working as hard as one can to clear as wide a patch of efficiency, goodwill, cultural contribution and constructive endeavour as possible in the hope of making the world a slightly better place. In considering these options, Sheila Wingfield’s poem about the Emperor Hsuang-Tsung, long a favourite of mine, reflects a belief that perhaps will always guide me:
“Hsuang-Tsung, great emperor,
Giddy and ill and old, carried in a litter,
Saw the stars sway.
His conquests and his arrangements and his powers, falling into fever with himself, pulsed their lives away.
Bow to his shade. To be at rest is but a dog that sighs and settles:
Better the unrelenting day.”
I do not think I would do very much in life, except retreat from it in despair, if I had become absolutely cynical and had lost all belief in the brotherhood of man. Archibald MacLeish’s poem of the pioneer astronauts seeing the world whole and entire for the first time in human history is a vision I respect:
“To see the earth as it truly is, small and blue and beautiful in that eternal silence where it floats, is to see ourselves as riders on the earth together brothers on that bright loveliness in that eternal cold, brothers who know now that they are trulybrothers.”
I know there is a tremendous amount of evidence to prove that the brotherhood of man is an idle dream and, of course, in a universal sense it may never be accomplished. But at the level of neighbourhood, community, country and region surely it is a valid belief to hold. In this not very large household of ours, prejudice against anyone because of class, creed, race, colour, gender or location really is despicable.
Finally, my thoughts sadly turn to old friends gone forever. The latest of these is the marvellously creative Michael Gilkes. By the end of each birth year the numbers have progressively escalated. This is in the nature of things. However, that stoical reflection does not make the loss any lighter. The lines of regret and love written by Callimachus, Greek poet and scholar, more than two thousand years ago, reminds me of the departure of old friends:
“Someone spoke of your death, Heraclitus. It brought me tears
And I remembered how often together We ran the sun down with talk.”