‘I DO NOT TRY TO PLEASE EV­ERY­ONE’

Ileana D’Cruz says she doesn’t want to ap­pease ev­ery­body any­more; adds peo­ple find faults with you no mat­ter what

Hindustan Times (Lucknow) - Live - - FRONT PAGE - Rishabh Suri ■ rishabh.suri@htlive.com

Ac­tor Ileana D’Cruz is one of the few Bol­ly­wood celebri­ties, who have spo­ken up about de­pres­sion and body im­age is­sues. Be­ing an ac­tor comes with a lot of re­spon­si­bil­ity, and they have to be peo­ple that their fans look up to.

Ileana says that the pres­sure, es­pe­cially to look good all the time, does get to her as a celebrity. “For some­one who has had body is­sues, and doesn’t con­sider her­self at­trac­tive at all, it af­fects me even more. But I think right now, I have dealt with the fact that I will be see­ing pic­tures of me which are not flat­ter­ing. I will have peo­ple judg­ing me on if I looked good on a par­tic­u­lar day or not,” she says.

She fur­ther goes on to say that ini­tially, there was an ea­ger­ness in her to im­press ev­ery­one, but not any­more. “Early on, there was a con­stant urge to please ev­ery­one. I would want to make sure I got good re­views wher­ever I went and in terms of what­ever pic­tures I took. But I have re­alised that it’s just not pos­si­ble, and I have ac­cepted the fact that you can’t please ev­ery­body. I’d rather deal with that re­al­ity and move on,” she says.

The Barfi! (2012) ac­tor had ear­lier re­vealed that she suf­fered from body dys­mor­phic dis­or­der dur­ing her teenage years, and be­cause of that, she also slipped into de­pres­sion. With the grow­ing de­mand for air­port and gym looks of ev­ery celebrity, Ileana finds her­self even more se­cluded to­day. “It’s a lit­tle up­set­ting, and some­times I do get a lit­tle ag­gres­sive as a re­sult of some of these pic­tures. There are also times when you don’t want to get a pic­ture clicked, but you have to oblige the pho­tog­ra­phers. That gets a lit­tle an­noy­ing, but I have grown to ac­cept it, and now I try not to crib about this. No mat­ter how great you look, peo­ple will still find faults with you,” says Ileana.

Her fil­mog­ra­phy has al­ways seen her at­tempt­ing roles of dif­fer­ent kinds — be it play­ing a de­mure girl in Barfi!, a Pun­jabi in Mubarakan (2017), or even an ac­com­mo­dat­ing house­wife in Raid. Hav­ing achieved suc­cess in both Tel­ugu and Hindi films, one must think that she has it all easy now. But Ileana re­veals the hard­est part about be­ing a celebrity. “First of all, I don’t see my­self as a celebrity. I see my­self as an ac­tor. The word ‘star’ puts you up on a pedestal, and peo­ple start treat­ing you like you are not nor­mal. But I am like ev­ery­body else out there, it’s just my films which put me in a spe­cific light,” she says, adding, “The hard­est part is that peo­ple have these ex­pec­ta­tions from you, and some of them find it hard to grasp the fact that you are a nor­mal per­son. I crave for that. If I am at the su­per­mar­ket, I don’t have to be obliged to have a con­ver­sa­tion with ev­ery­body I meet. I want to be alone. I know it sounds petty, but peo­ple don’t give you that chance. I feel it’s a stupid thing to com­plain about, be­cause if I meet an ac­tor I ad­mire, that would set me off as well. But I didn’t want to be fa­mous, I wanted to be an ac­tor,” adds Ileana, who is ru­moured to be in run­ning for an­other film with Ajay Devgn.

PHOTO: YOGEN SHAH

Ileana D’Cruz

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