Before the suicide, Buxar DM recorded video message

GHAZIABAD: An IAS officer who allegedly committed suicide has purportedly cited marital discord as the reason for the decision to end his life, describing himself as a peaceful man “fed up with life”.

The body of Mukesh Pandey, 29, was recovered on Thursday night from a railway track at Ghaziabad. The head was severed from the torso.

Besides detailed suicide notes found on him, police also recovered a self-shot mobile video, believed to have been shot in Bihar’s Buxar circuit house, where he was posted as the district magistrate.

HT has a copy of the video, which is around five minutes in duration.

“I am a simple peace loving man. Since marriage, there have been ups and down in my life. We often argue on something or the other. We both have different personalities,” Pandey is heard saying in the clip.

He described his nature with that of his wife as “chalk and cheese” and said, “She is an extrovert while I am meek and introvert in nature”.

Pandey, who hails from Assam, was married in 2014 into a prominent business family of Patna. Besides his wife, he is survived by a two-month-old daughter.

“Excess of anything leads a man to take extreme steps. My wife loves me a lot...I have no pressure to commit suicide. I don’t blame anyone for suicide. I am frustrated with life and don’t think that we humans are contributing anything...,” he said.

“If you imagine yourself as a part of universe and journey, you will find that there is no meaning of existence,” he added.

He also described his decision as “cowardly” and “escapist”.

My wife loves me a lot... I don’t blame anyone for suicide. I am frustrated with life and don’t think that we humans are contributing anything... MUKESH PANDEY, Buxar DM in a video shot before the suicide