When my troll and I came face to face
Each time I tweet, I get an instantaneous response from a select few. They are on my timeline without fail and they are abusive. There is no pretence of building a counter-narrative. They crawl out like termites and I sometimes wonder if they’ve been assigned different targets.
Social media is full of keyboard warriors and most of them are, of course, nameless and faceless. I’ve often wondered what motivates them. How does downright filthy language come so easily to them? Are they paid for their vitriol?
So I set out to meet one of them, to get a better understanding of what makes them tick and what makes than hate.
It takes me over a week to fix a meeting with a troll. I am forced to follow those who abuse me so I can send them direct messages but they don’t reply. In the end, a contact helps me set up a meeting. The contact was associated with the BJP for the 2014 general election but claims he has fallen out with the party. The troll too appears to be a BJP follower from his tweets. He always addresses Narendra Modi, Amit Shah and Subramanian Swamy as ‘Sir’. Rahul Gandhi is the son of an ‘Italian bar waitress’, Jawaharlal Nehru was a ‘syphilis patient’ and Kapil Sibal and Shashi Tharoor are ‘colonial slaves’ and ‘asslickers’.
He agrees to meet me in Pune, on the condition his real identity is protected. We’ll call him Shiv.
A few hours before our meeting, questions swirl around in my mind. What will Shiv be like in person? Will be as bigoted as his tweets? As nasty? As unrelenting?
Reading tweets he has posted over the past few years made it clear that he saw himself as a staunch Hindu. He believes “Muslims are no one’s friends except jihadis.’’ He is clearly allergic to anything secular, including the founders of the nation. Women are fair game. He claims to be deeply religious but doesn’t bat an eyelid before offering to feed a Muslim journalist a pork burger. He recently warned Shehla Rashid, the high-profile JNU student, against blowing herself off because “there isn’t provision of 72 males”.
Will Shiv endorse his views or will eye contact make a difference?
I walk purposefully towards the courtyard where he is seated on a hot, sunny day. He gives me the once-over and waits for me to start the conversation.
Shiv has called me anti-national and sees me as a ‘libtard’. He thinks I support Kashmir’s stone-pelters and have made excuses for Jaish-e-Mohammad chief Masood Azhar’s jihad by quoting from his own interrogation report on how he turned his attention to India after the demolition of the Babri Masjid.
Trolls — including the one on front of me — are swift with delivering judgements. They are only comfortable when they can pigeon-hole you, so I deserve to go to Pakistan because I am an ‘ISI agent.’
Shiv is a 32-year-old engineer from Gujarat and is currently without a job. He has close to 17,000 followers on Twitter and of the 1,600-odd people that the prime
ANONYMOUS ABUSER he claims to embody hindutva, wants all Muslims to leave india and detests anything secular, including Mahatma Gandhi
minister follows, Shiv is one of them.
Dressed in a shirt and trouser, he looks like the guy next door. He is not shifty. His body language is aggressive and he looks me straight in the eye.
The answer is pat. “Every action has a reaction. If you speak against my faith, I won’t spare you. If you poke, I will poke. ”
“If I’m assaulted physically, I will also respond. Agar tum Bharat ke tukde karoge, toh tumhare bhi tukde honge.”
“Kashmiri Pandits have been driven out of their homes. Our temples have been razed. Fifty nine kar sewaks were burnt alive. They cut cows. They are not our brothers and can’t be our friends.”
Shiv makes it clear he wants all Muslims to leave India. “The last train to Pakistan is still to leave.”
“Gandhi late mara, pehle marna chaheye tha (Gandhi died late, he should have died earlier). India would not have been broken into two.”
It is difficult not to wince. The Shiv sitting in front of me is a mirror image of his online avatar. I’m reminded of a tweet he’d sent to Shabana Azmi saying, “She might have produced four kids if Javed Akhtar had taken her to honeymoon instead of Aryan-Dravidian goats.”
“Savarkar and Bal Thackeray.” “Only Gods have bhakts.”
“I will pick Shiv Sena over BJP. I prefer Yogi Adityanath to Narendra Modi. Why does your blood pressure shoot up when you see saffron?”
It is time to remind him that Adityanath has made incendiary speeches and has been booked for attempt to murder and an attack at a place of worship.
His reply is no different from those expressed online. His body language continues to remain aggressive.
“He has barely taken oath and you are judging him. Let him work before you brand him.”
“I meditate and listen to Kishore Kumar songs. I can sing too.”
“Only Akshay Kumar is pro-India. Shah Rukh Khan and Aamir Khan don’t feel safe in India. They live in India, earn in India but don’t feel safe in India. I’ll troll Aamir Khan till I’m alive.”
He recently tweeted about Khan, questioning why he wasn’t speaking up against illegal slaughter houses. “Mouth full of swine poo or camel piss,’’ he had asked.
“He insulted Shivji in the movie PK.”
“The censor board is run by humans. They make mistakes.”
Since I know Shiv is single, I ask him if he has a girlfriend.
“I did but we parted ways mutually because I’m not earning enough.” He has just got a licence to export spices to the West Asia but still has to start work. “If you hurt me, I’ll hurt you.” “May be he likes my ideology.”