Sugandha Rawal You feel people are judging you if you can’t feed your baby: Kishwer Merchant Rai
As a first-time mother, actor Kishwer Merchant Rai is always overwhelmed by every little move by her newborn, and admits that embracing motherhood has been a roller coaster ride.
Kishwer welcomed her first child, a baby boy, Nirvair, with her husband Suyyash Rai on August 27. “Every time, I see his face,
I forget about all the things,” she tells us.
Ask her about the story behind picking the name, and she says that it came to her one night. “I used to have sleepless nights when Suyyash had Covid-19, as he used to be in another room. One night, while listening to Ek Onkar, I messaged him the name, and he loved it.”
At the moment, Kishwer is on a road to recovery after the C-section delivery. Opening up about it, the 40-year-old says, “A woman’s body goes through so much in these nine months, and then comes a C-section. Then, you have to feed the baby, and there is no production of milk on the first three days. You get frustrated, on top of it, you feel people are judging you ki breast milk nahin de pa rahe ho.”
She adds: “After delivery, you can go into postpartum depression. That’s why it is important to be happy, but how? Because if you can't do anything for your child, you can’t be happy. But everything is fine now, I am back home, eating well and he is also fine.”
Amid these happy emotions, there are some overwhelming moments, too. “If I’m cradling him and he is still crying, I get emotional. I get anxious. There are many things which I will learn as I explore motherhood,” she concludes.