“She is shoot dead in front of her house”

Zahida Parvez’s tell- all diary entries expose her paranoid behaviour

Zahida Parvez’s 2011 diary is the single biggest piece of evidence against her. Her record of her relationship with BJP MLA Dhruv Narayan Singh was explicit and graphic. No detail was spared in describing her encounters with him. Zahida made entries daily, even on the days she did not meet him. She even recorded some of their sexual encounters, apparently for “sweet memories”, in a CD.

The first page of the diary has her name, written as “Zahida Dhruv Narayan Singh”. She usually wrote her name as Ar Zahida Parvez, Ar standing for Architect. On the next page, she writes: “Everlasting memories dedicated to our togetherness.”

On August 16, 2011, she writes in her untidy scrawl: “She is shoot dead in front of her house... I was very depressed since from the early morning... all of sudden Ali called up around 11: 15 that Mubarak ho sahib, now we did it in front of her house.” ( This was the day Shehla Masood was shot dead in front of her house in Bhopal.)

Zahida writes that she got the murder confirmed by sending an employee to Shehla’s house. “Then I became so relaxed”, but as night falls, she asks her employee and confidante Saba Farooqui to stay with her. Describing their mental state, she writes: “Darr se hum dono ki hi fatt rahi thi... raat bhar TV dekhte rahe, aankohn se neend koson door thee... saare newspaper,

saare channel, sab uski murder story se bhare hue the.

( We were very scared... We kept watching TV the entire night, sleep was miles away... All newspapers, new channels were filled with her murder story).

Then she writes: “I love you Mr Dhruv Narayan Singh and I mean it.”

On April 30, she writes: “He is in Amsterdom ( Amsterdam).”

On May 5, she writes: “Dhruv aaj Dubai

mein hein.”

On June 22, she writes: “We had blasting sex today for one 1/ 2 hour.”

On June 18, she writes: “We met at 7 at office, Unhone jabardast sex bhi kiya.”

There were several vitriolic references to Shehla. Once, after Dhruv visited Shehla, she writes about Shehla: “K.... ko maar dalungi mein ( I will kill her).”

On June 2, she writes: “Voh Shehla ko bhul nahin pate ya koi aur mil gayi hogi???? Mein aapki diwani hoon thodi si jagah de do

dil mein ( Either he hasn’t forgotten Shehla or there is someone else. I am mad about you, give me some space in your heart).” Investigators noticed that by this time, some friction had appeared in her relationship with Singh. She makes an entry: “We had little bit sex today. We fight like anything.”

On July 26, she writes: “At 7: 45 pm, meine

unki aise ki tesi kar di. Khoob royi mein.” It was Singh’s 52nd birthday. He went to Shehla’s house. Zahida found out and threatened him that she would tell Shehla about their relationship.

On July 28, she writes: “Safaian de rahe the. Mera kisi se na sambandh hai, na tha ( He was giving clarifications... I don’t have a relationship with anyone nor do I intend to).”

Then she visits a fortune- teller and writes

what he told her: “15 November tak Dhruv

tumhare pass aa jayega. ( Dhruv will be with you by November 15)”

On August 6, she writes: “We met in evening- one hour together. Had blasting sex. We had sex in the office.”

There are as many as 60 entries describing their passion in detail. She recorded

some on her CCTV without Singh’s knowledge.