KAMILA MCDONALD
MOVING FORWARD
SHE WAS full of nerves, unable to sit still. Understandable, really, as she was about to sit down for her first tell-all interview since her very public break-up with her husband. But Kamila McDonald’s nerves weren’t related to her impending interview – that, she was ready for. What she wasn’t so prepared for was the upcoming World Championships race on the television in front of her.
McDonald is the quintessential girl next door – ‘Miss Congeniality’ personified – the friend you tell all your secrets to. But, last week, as she sat down with Outlook, she was the one opening up about the emotional roller coaster she been on over the past two years.
“Nobody wants to get divorced; nobody plans to get divorced,” she said. Her own divorce from recording artiste Jah Cure had been finalised only three weeks before the interview. The emotion was still fresh in her response. “I grew up around so much love. My parents have been married for 34 years this year. All my aunts and uncles. I grew up seeing functional marriages and so I went into my marriage with the intention of it being long-lasting,” she said.
Her story would turn out much differently from those she had hoped to emulate. However, she said her experiences have made her stronger. “I am at a place of surrender, and at a place of peace. It took a really long time for me to get to this place. In life, anything that costs you your peace is expensive and it’s a little bit too expensive, seeing that I brought my most precious gift into this world (my daughter). She is who we are focusing on now. Her happiness is all that matters, and despite what happened, and our current reality, we are going to continue to fight for her happiness. So, in one word, I feel at peace,” she told Outlook. “It’s been difficult – a roller coaster of emotions, but it’s been a transition and it has taught me many lessons. At the end of the day, you don’t plan for these things. You don’t want them to happen, but life happens. That’s what’s so beautiful about life. You have to embrace it – the ups and the downs, the ins and the outs – because really, it’s in your deepest, darkest moments where you come to light; where light is brought in.” McDonald’s clarity in expressing her feelings and her self-awareness were striking. It’s the kind of thing that most often comes through hardship. “You learn about yourself; you learn about the things that you value, the things that are important to you that you didn’t even realise until you go through it,” she said. In the midst of her private storm, she has found promising and comforting rainbows. “Yes, it’s been difficult, but I have been blessed with the most incredible support system that I could ever ask for. It’s in your difficult moments that you realise the beauty around you, the blessings that you have to rely on. We give thanks. We have life, we have hope. One thing we can’t lose in life is hope.
You have to know when you have given it your absolute all and there is nothing left of you to give but yourself, and that is not OK.
We have to hang on to it and know that at the end of the day, the Almighty has a plan for you that is always greater than your plan.”
FACING CHANGES
McDonald said that she has come through the storm a completely new person. As a health practitioner, no one knows better than her that health goes beyond working out six times a week. “Health is everything – emotional health, mental health – and when those are compromised, everything is compromised. I think I have learnt0 and regained health in a place I didn’t have it a couple years ago, and that in itself is precious to me, because health is your biggest asset,” she said.
But it has not been easy. “I think it was one of my biggest struggles, even though I was doing all the traditional healthy things – working out and eating healthy; all things I prescribe and I encourage people to embrace. That can all be lost if you don’t have it together emotionally; if you don’t have it together mentally; if you are in toxic situations. I give thanks that after a series of ups and downs I’m still here, I’m smiling and I have hope. I know that the future is bright and I give thanks that we both respect each other that we have (our daughter, Kailani) at the centre of it all, and her well-being at the forefront of our minds and our actions every day,” she said.
Divorces can often get ugly. McDonald is happy that she and her now ex-husband were able to take a different approach.
“I give thanks we have been able to come to that place, because many people are not able to get past individual egos. We were able to get up out of ourselves and see the bigger picture – and she (Kailani) is the bigger picture, and her happiness is all that matters to both of us. She knows that no matter what happens, her mommy and her daddy love her more than anything in the world. That really is how we shield her and protect her – with the security that both of us love her dearly. I feel confident that we will continue to grow and transform from where we are right now. Hopefully, one day we can be really good friends, where we can look back and say things didn’t work out the way we wanted them to work out, but we have this beautiful daughter and she is a gift and a miracle to us and the world.”
FINDING BALANCE
Life is no doubt complicated by a divorce. The sudden loss of a partner surely requires major adjustment and with a child to raise and a thriving career, it makes finding balance that much harder.
“You never really do balance it. Balance is