Jamaica Gleaner

From victim TO VICTOR Cecelia Campbell-Livingston/ Gleaner Writer

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SEXUALLY ABUSED at age six and again at age nine by a family member, Anika Williams described her life as a nightmare for more than 10 years.

The experience left her feeling uncomforta­ble around men, whom she distrusted completely. When she did open up a bit and enter into a relationsh­ip, it was a toxic one in which she was emotionall­y and verbally abused.

That relationsh­ip, she said, added to her ill feelings towards men.

“So I decided to seek after sexual relations with women instead. I was now drawn into that crowd, living a homosexual lifestyle, drinking and smoking weed to get a high each day. I would tell myself I would stop smoking and sleeping with women, but I would still find myself doing it,” she shared with

Williams said that at one point, she was convinced that the Lord wanted nothing to do with her. She believed that if He had loved her, He would not have allowed so many bad things to happened to her.

Soon, her constant struggle to find true happiness and her own identity, along with many sleepless nights, panic attacks and depression, saw her struggling with low self-esteem. In order to ease the pain, toxic relationsh­ips.

“He has completely renewed my mind because I no longer have desires for women, drugs or alcohol. Through His love for me, I am able to love and care for even those who caused me pain in the past. My decision to submit to His will and embrace what He has called me to do resulted in me realising that the Lord has opened up doors and opportunit­ies for me to fulfil my purpose,” she said.

Williams said she found the courage to let go and allow God to take charge of her life when she met her mentor and life strategist, Kashina Alexander-McLean, founder of Scars That Speak Out Loud.

The 25-year-old is now in her second year at university, pursuing her baccalaure­ate degree in applied psychology.

“I have been given the opportunit­y to minister to young women through my business and ministry, Avondale Beauty Artistry, and my blog, Image In Me, Imagine Me. I am truly honoured that the Lord chose to use me despite my past. Most recently, I had the privilege of positively impacting the life of one of my clients while attending to her. She recommitte­d her life to Jesus Christ and has been making an effort since to seek after His heart,”Williams proudly shared.

Williams, who hails from downtown

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