Fergie, araw-araw nagha-hallucinate dahil sa drugs
NALULONG nang husto si Fergie sa crystal meth at umabot sa punto na araw-araw na siyang nagha- hallucinate.
Nakipaglaban ang 42 taong gulang na mang-aawit sa kanyang adiksyon sa droga sa labis na pag-asam ng kasikatan sa Black
Eyed Peas, at tinagurian niya itong “lowest point” ng kanyang buhay.
“I was ( suffering from) chemically induced psychosis and dementia. I was hallucinating on a daily basis,” aniya sa
iNews. “It took a year after getting off that drug for the chemicals in my brain to settle so that I stopped seeing things. I’d just be sitting there, seeing a random bee or bunny.”
Sa kanyang pagbabalik-tanaw, may pagkakataon na labis ang kanyang paranoia at inakala niyang hinahanap siya ng “CIA, FBI and a SWAT team” kaya nagdesisyon siyang pumunta ng simbahan.
“They tried to kick me out, because I was moving down the aisles in this crazy way, as I thought there was an infrared camera in the church trying to check for my body. I bolted past the altar into a hallway and two people were chasing me,” aniya.
“I remember thinking: ‘ If I walk outside, and the SWAT team’s out there, I was right all along. But if they’re not out there, then it’s the drugs making me see things and I’m going to end up in an institution. And if it really is the drugs, I don’t want to live my life like this anymore, anyway.’ I walked out of the church; obviously, there was no SWAT team, it was just me in a parking lot. It was a freeing moment.”
Mas masaya na ngayon si Fergie sa takbo ng kanyang buhay, dahil siya ay malusog, matagumpay at ina ng apat na taong gulang na si Axl sa asawang si Josh
Duhamel. At ngayon, kaya na niyang alalahanin ang drug stage sa kanyang buhay na malinaw ang pag-iisip. Malaki ang pasasalamat ng Double Dutchess star na nagawa niyang labanan ang kanyang adiksiyon.
“The drugs thing, it was a hell of a lot of fun... until it wasn’t. But you know what, I thank the day it happened to me. Because that’s my strength, my faith, my hope for something better,” paliwanag niya.