Lost and losses

missing and I am heartbroken. Ugh.

It really just brings me back to memories of all the pets I have lost over the years. Missing them never really goes away. Bittersweet memories too, because you can't deny the fact that there were so many good times. If you have ever had pets you would know what I mean.

And as if losing Liit was not enough, I was also feeling I had lost someone dear all over again. Last week was also my father's death anniversary. I don't really know exactly how long it has been but he has been gone for quite some time now too. I don't really care to know how long exactly because it really doesn't matter. It still feels like he went away yesterday. The void in my life (and heart) remains the same. I have always had manic Mondays but last Monday breezed through with ease. I was also feeling lucky too, having scored free roundtrip tickets for free after I agreed to taking a later flight. I never get that lucky although I can be a brat of the universe when I travel. The string of good luck that date just had me in.awe, and a but curious how extremely fortunate I had become. And then it dawned on me. Death anniversary. Oh it must have been my Pops trying to distract me from.feeling blue. He was right to do that you know because as soon.as I realized what the day meant to me, I was overcome with grief. Hahaay. You never get over the loss of a loved one. You may have learned to accept it and move on, but the missing part pretty much goes unchanged.

We lose ourselves in these kind of emotions and wonder if we’ll manage to sink or swim. We may have tried different techniques to cope but often discover that although time heals all wounds, the scar will be a reminder forever. That’s how it is when we dearly love someone. They may be physically gone but they are always in our hearts.

I guess the important thing is that we cherish the moments we had with them. We learn from picking ourselves up from sheer heartache and sadness, and move on to continue living our lives. By being the best that we can possibly be, you can say that they continue to live as part of us. We should celebrate our lives as much as we can and be thankful for it. Live it as fully as possible. Let us be braver to embrace what life has in store for us, good or bad because in the end it allows us to appreciate everything. Cliche as it may seem, it is better to have loved then lost than never to have loved at all because it makes living more meaningful, don't you think?