Trans Model: “I’ve spent £750k to become Barbie – but I want more”
Nikki Exotika has been under the knife more than 30 times in her bid to become just like her plastic idol, but her quest for perfection isn’t over yet
With her peroxide hair extensions, W candy-pink lips and perfectlyproportioned 24-inch waist, Nikki Exotika believes she’s every bit the perfect woman.
But it’s taken Barbie-obsessed Nikki – who was born a boy called Jason Torres – two decades and a whopping £750,000 to transform into her idol.
The 35 year old has had over 30 cosmetic procedures, including gender reassignment surgery, cheek implants, a bum lift and six nose jobs. Despite several botched procedures on her nose and breasts – which have since been fixed – Nikki says she’s very happy with her surgeryenhanced looks, and reveals she’s now even considering having a rib removal procedure.
The model and singer says, “I’ve done every procedure you could possibly do. Now I’ll just keep tightening it to make sure I always look my best.”
ASHAMED & CONFUSED
Nikki, who was born in New Jersey, USA, and grew up with her mum Myrna, a hair stylist, always knew she was different.
At the age of four, Nikki – whose dad was not around – became obsessed with Barbie.
She says, “I stole one of my cousin’s Barbie dolls because I wasn’t allowed one of my own. I loved her hourglass figure and pretty face – I wanted to be just like her. I’d try on my mum’s make-up and clothes, but when she caught me she told me off. I felt ashamed and confused.”
At school, Nikki’s effeminate mannerisms made her an easy target for bullies.
She recalls, “I was pushed into lockers, punched and spat on. I felt worthless and hated my manly body. Looking at my penis made me feel depressed.”
Struggling to cope with her feelings, Nikki began to lash out at her mum and their relationship broke down. When she was 17 she decided to move in with friends.
She says, “I started going to gay bars where I met transgender people for the first time and realised that I’d been born in the wrong body. I was relieved to know I wasn’t alone.”
When she turned 18, Nikki plucked up the courage to tell her family that she wanted to transition.
She also began taking illegal hormones given to her by other trans friends to develop breasts, stop her body hair from growing, and widen her hips.
She says, “My mum didn’t understand why I wanted to change, but I couldn’t live as a man any longer. I got hair extensions and started wearing tiny hot-pants and crop tops. I wanted to look like a totally different person.”
While working as a club dancer and singer, Nikki was able to fund her first cosmetic procedure – a nose job, followed by two boob jobs taking her to a B cup, and an Adam’s apple reduction totalling £15,000.
Then, in 1997, she spent another £15,000 on gender reassignment surgery in Montreal, Canada, which was funded by her rich boyfriend. The operation took seven hours and transformed Nikki’s penis
into a vagina, after which she needed round-the-clock care for two weeks.
She says, “I went to have surgery by myself and it was scary. I didn’t know what to expect, but when I woke up after the operation and felt my vagina for the first time, it was a fantastic feeling.
“Amazingly, my mum said I looked beautiful and that I’d blossomed into a beautiful butterfly – it meant the world to me.”
After her transition, Nikki became fixated on looking like her idol, Barbie. Thanks to her successful career as a performer, she was able to afford cosmetic procedures every six months, including veneers, lip enhancement, chin revisions and a temporal lift to change the shape of her eyes.
She says, “It was my dream that one day people would stare at me. My mum thought I’d taken my surgery too far because I was already beautiful, and because of the risks involved, too. But the more operations I had, the happier and more content I became.”
Over the next 15 years, Nikki had multiple surgeries, including a bum lift, chin reconstructions, cheek implants, calf implants and fat removal to complete her Barbie look.
Sadly, Nikki’s surgery spree involved botched procedures on her nose and breasts, and the revisions cost over £45,000.
She says, “I went to a surgeon in New York and he messed up my breasts and my nose – I looked awful. Surgeons are very quick to take your money sometimes, and operations can be very hit and miss.”
To date, she’s spent more than £114,000 on Botox injections, fillers, facials and peels, and a further £118,000 on make-up, false lashes, hair extensions and tanning.
Nikki also owns five collectors’ edition Barbie dolls worth £190 each, and her wardrobe is full of pink clothes as well as official Barbie necklaces and handbags totalling more than £5,000. She also plans to invest in a pink £57,000 BMW to complete her plastic image.
She says, “My body has had gallons of silicone and I’ve spent a lot, but it’s paid off.
“Everywhere I go people look at me. They always want to take pictures with me. I never got any attention before my transition, and now I’m addicted to it. I feel like I’ve achieved as close as I can to perfection, but I’d love to have a couple of ribs removed, as it’s tough maintaining my 24-inch waist in the gym.”
Nikki, who experimented with gay men in her teens but now dates straight men, is looking for Mr Right.
She says, “I’ve dated a number of men who were multi-millionaires – including Saudi princes, Hollywood actors and athletes, but now I’m looking for real love.” Although she would like to find a plastic-surgery fan to be the “Ken” to her “Barbie”, Nikki is also willing to fund cosmetic procedures for her future partner so they can match her plastic image.
She says, “I’m looking for a tall, super-hot, straight, muscular man. Despite being unlucky in love so far, I’m still optimistic on the relationship front. Hopefully one day I’ll find my Ken.”
❛EVERYWHERE I GO PEOPLE STARE AT ME AND WANT TO TAKE PICTURES❜
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