Emo­tional Kerry ad­mits: “I’m strug­gling again”

Kerry Ka­tona has opened up to her fol­low­ers about her new men­tal health bat­tle – and in­sid­ers say she’s de­ter­mined not to let it break her

Closer (UK) - - Contents - By Daisy Mclure

She’s been bru­tally hon­est about her on­go­ing bat­tle with bipo­lar dis­or­der, af­ter be­ing di­ag­nosed at 24 – telling Closer in Fe­bru­ary that she has days where she “didn’t want to get out of bed.”

And last week, Kerry Ka­tona bravely con­fessed to fans in an In­sta­gram live video that she’d been “strug­gling hugely” since her 38th birth­day last month, ad­mit­ting, “Since my birth­day I’ve re­ally strug­gled men­tally… hugely. Re­ally, re­ally strug­gled men­tally. Ob­vi­ously I’m at home on my own all day when the kids are at school and that’s a mas­sive, mas­sive trig­ger for me… is be­ing on my own. When I’m feel­ing down, I cut my­self off from the world.

“There’s times I sit there and think, ‘Oh my God, I can’t cope with this any more. There’s no way out of how I’m feel­ing. There’s no way out of this hole that I’m in. I want to make it re­ally, re­ally clear that I strug­gle. I do strug­gle. And it isn’t all rainbows and uni­corns. For me, it’s been one of my long­est downs.”

DARK THOUGHTS

The for­mer Atomic Kit­ten singer has daugh­ters Molly, 17, and Lilly-sue, 15, with first hus­band Brian Mcfad­den, and Heidi, 11, and Max, ten, with sec­ond hus­band Mark Croft. Last Au­gust, she split from third hus­band Ge­orge Kay, with whom she shares daugh­ter Dy­lan­jorge, four, and has since been fo­cus­ing on fit­ness and be­ing a mo­ti­va­tional speaker.

Speak­ing last week, Kerry added, “I’ve sat sev­eral times over the past few weeks and thought, ‘I can’t do this any more’. Not that I would ever act upon it, but those thoughts do cross your mind. But we are all too wor­thy to take our own lives. There is a way out of ev­ery­thing. I’m go­ing through a di­vorce, it’s cus­tody… there’s so much go­ing on that I have to try and deal with it my­self. I was sat with my doc­tor a minute ago and I felt re­ally em­bar­rassed that I can’t deal with these prob­lems that are go­ing on.”

Fol­low­ing Kerry’s frank on­line con­fes­sion, fans rushed to praise the re­al­ity star, with one writ­ing, “Peo­ple should be more hon­est about their men­tal health, it fights the stigma,” while an­other added, “Keep strong, Kerry”.

The star, who has fa­mously bat­tled drug ad­dic­tion, has spo­ken can­didly in the past about how her bipo­lar – which can cause mood swings and er­ratic be­hav­iour – can af­fect her re­la­tion­ship with her chil­dren. She re­vealed, “‘I’ll make a plan when I’m hy­per, the kids will be all dressed to go out – and within an hour I’ve changed it. It’s not fair to say the kids are used to it, but they know that’s their mum.’

BE­ING HON­EST

In her re­cent video, Kerry – who has found hap­pi­ness again with per­sonal trainer boyfriend Ryan Ma­honey – ad­mit­ted her men­tal health strug­gles had caused her to dis­tance her­self from her loved ones, say­ing, “I cut my­self off from the world. Even the other half tries to ring me, and it’s like I push peo­ple away be­cause I get so em­bar­rassed to talk about it.”

The star trans­formed her body fol­low­ing her mar­riage break­down last year – slim­ming from a size 14 to a size 8. She also in­sisted ear­lier this year that she’d come off her bipo­lar med­i­ca­tion as “the best pill to take is ex­er­cise and eat­ing healthy”. But open­ing up last week, Kerry re­vealed she was re-con­sid­er­ing med­i­ca­tion af­ter a visit to her GP, ad­mit­ting,

❛SHE RECOG­NISES WHEN SHE’S FEEL­ING LOW AND NEEDS SOME HELP❜

“[My doc­tor] men­tioned about go­ing back on anti-de­pres­sants short-term, which I’m not against at all. I feel so much bet­ter for talk­ing about what’s been go­ing on in my head. Even I don’t know what’s go­ing on in my head some­times. I want to be able to help other peo­ple.”

The source adds, “Kerry’s main fo­cus is to be happy and healthy for her chil­dren’s sake. It can be hard for her to ad­mit she’s strug­gling, but she knows be­ing hon­est al­ways makes things eas­ier. She was over­whelmed by the pos­i­tive re­ac­tion she got from her fans and Ryan has been an in­cred­i­ble sup­port, too.”

Pals say her new man Ryan is “hugely sup­port­ive”

She’s ad­mit­ted that her men­tal health can af­fect her re­la­tion­ship with her chil­dren

She opened up to fans on In­sta­gram last week

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