Sinead’s ‘suicide note’ on Facebook
Hunt for troubled singer as she writes: ‘I’ve died a million times already’
A POST on the troubled singer Sinead O’Connor’s Facebook page yesterday suggested she had ‘taken an overdose’.
The apparent suicide note, one of a number of emotional posts over the weekend, made distressing references to 48-year-old Miss O’Connor’s health and family members.
The 450-word message began: ‘There is only so much any woman can be expected to bear. What was done to me this week was appalling cruelty… This week has broken me.
‘The last two nights finished me off. I have taken an overdose. There is no other way to get respect. I am not at home, I’m at a hotel, somewhere in Ireland, under another name.’
Fans alerted the Irish police and Miss O’Connor was later found safe.
The post continued: ‘ I’m invisible. I don’t matter a shred to anyone. No one has come near me. I’ve died a million times already with the pain of it.
‘If I wasn’t posting this, my kids and
‘I don’t matter a shred to anyone’
family wouldn’t even find out. I could have been dead here for weeks already and they’d never have known. I’m such a rotten horrible mother and person, that I’ve been alone. Howling crying for weeks.’
The message also discussed the mother-of-four’s custody battle over her children and her recent hysterectomy. Miss O’Connor, who performed at Glastonbury in 2013 and had a worldwide hit with Nothing Compares 2 U in 1990, has spoken candidly in the past about her mental health problems, including receiving treatment for bipolar disorder and having suicidal thoughts.
A representative for the singer declined to comment.
The authenticity of the post has not been confirmed but it appeared on her verified Facebook page, which is followed by almost 560,000 fans. A spokesman for the Irish police said last night: ‘We do not comment on named individuals.’
A source added: ‘A person has been found safe.’
On Saturday Miss O’Connor, who lives in Bray, County Wicklow, posted a message in which she appealed for help finding a new job and somewhere to stay.
She said she had given up on her music career, adding she was not a ‘job snob’ and was willing to clean toilets or work in a kitchen. The post read: ‘If you have a job for me, and a place to stay, where I can smoke, please let me know.
‘I don’t need anything other than one warm room, and not to be living in a silent empty house.
‘And to be appreciated. I’m good at writing. I’m also a great cleaner. I’m not a job snob.
‘Happy to clean toilets. Have hard work ethic. I love people. I wanna socialise. So all jobs will be considered. Music is over for me. Music did this. Rendered me invisible even unto my children. Murdered my soul. I’m never going back to music.
‘But I’m a worker and I wanna graft. Kitchen jobs, waitressing… anything at all if it’s sociable and people loving. I’m there.’
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