SUSANNA REID: I long to give my friend Kate Garraway a hug

AS a secret introvert, I’ve been wondering for weeks if it’s just me dreading the reappearance of a social life.

The pressure of getting dolled up. The time-keeping. Being around (whisper it) other people. I’m just not ready.

as millions of people flocked to pubs and restaurants on Saturday night, I curled up on my sofa and watched the Broadway musical Hamilton on TV.

You see, after all this time stuck at home in the evenings, I’ve forgotten the art of socialising. The weekend before last, I went to my first dinner party in months in the beautiful garden of friends — just a handful of us.

Shortly after accepting the invitation, I experienced a wholly unfamiliar feeling. What on earth was I going to wear? Being the first time in four months I was going ‘out, out’, I felt I should make an effort. But being dressy to eat in the garden? That felt over the top.

I became mired in overthinking and trying on outfits with bags, even considering heels for a moment. In the end, pragmatism won and I just opted for a sundress, accessorised with a bottle of hand sanitiser. Once there, the conversation went the same way all conversations now do — the people we knew who had spent lockdown breaking the rules; the way our plans had been thwarted by Covid. I have forgotten what we used to talk about at parties.

Frankly, a week later I wasn’t ready to go out again. So my social contact on ‘ super’ Saturday consisted of going round to Mum’s flat for a cup of tea and a catch-up over the kitchen table.

Lockdown has made my FOGO — fear of going out –—much worse. I’ve always had to drag myself to fancy parties and steel myself to walk into a crowded room. The pop of the red carpet camera bulbs might look like fun, but I make a swift dash up that celebrity catwalk, worrying about whether the photographers have caught an unflattering angle or a gust of wind will whisk away my fake ponytail.

Once, outside the National Television awards, I turned into a windswept mess as my hairpieces and secret clips were exposed — not the polished picture you want to appear in the papers the next morning. Once inside, I’ll just find a familiar face and cling to them like a limpet. My GMB colleagues know that once I spy them, they are stuck with me.

But now it has been an age since my make-up artist turned up on my doorstep before a big night out, wheeling her roller-suitcase of lotions, potions, hair pieces, fake eyelashes and spray tan. The last star- studded event I got dolled up for was on Tuesday, March 10, at the TRIC (Television and Radio Industries) awards at the Grosvenor House Hotel. artfully tousled hair? Check. Painted face? Check. Fitted red satin dress? Check. It feels like 100 years ago, but the pictures are still online with their flattering captions: ‘The form-fitting dress showcased her slender curves and highlighted her toned and tanned pins’. It’s a description that makes me laugh out loud right now, since I’ve piled on the Covid 10lb and my weekly spray tans are a distant memory. Honestly though? I’m happier like this. My work means that a dressy outfit and full face of makeup is everyday wear, even in lockdown. But it’s such a relief to take it all off after the show and know there’s no prospect of having to find a second wind at the other end of the day, putting the armour back on again. I’ve always gone to work in my pyjamas or baggy sweatpants. Now I change back into them once I’m done with work at 9am, and barely move till bedtime. Clearly I’ve become allergic to other people — those pictures of hundreds crammed together in Soho last Saturday made my flesh crawl. Yes, I would love to see Hamilton for real again one day and I was relieved to hear of the Goverment’s emergency support package for the arts.

But I don’t want to be anywhere near theatre-goers and their rustling sweet papers.

Thankfully I’m not the only celebrity recluse. I was lucky enough once to attend a dinner alongside the world’s most glamorous chef, Nigella Lawson. Flawless in appearance, sparkling in conversation, she was utterly captivating.

SO I was amused to see that she too finds the prospect of returning to life as we once knew it daunting and is planning to go on a 5:2 diet ‘with people, rather than food’. She’ll spend five days in splendid isolation and only see other faces for two days a week.

I’m taking it one further and selfishly aiming for the 6:1 social diet — with just one day a week when I steel myself to face the social whirl.

Even if it’s for nothing more than a cup of tea with Mum.