Robbie: Fame could kill me
Star says career made him mentally ill
ROBBIE Williams says fame has left him “mentally ill” and he fears his career could kill him.
The singer, who has been open about battling depression, reckons it is genetic, saying: “It sprints through my family.” But the 43-year-old said: “I don’t know if I’d be this mentally ill without fame. “I don’t think it would be as gross or as powerful if it hadn’t have been for fame. You get a magnifying glass in the shape of the world’s attention and your defects will obviously magnify too. This job is really bad for my health. It’s going to kill me. Unless I view it in a different way.”
Robbie, who said he had become agoraphobic, also revealed he prepared for his first date with wife Ayda Field, 38, by getting his female drug dealer to bring round some morphine – before sleeping with her.
He told the Sunday Times he would not cheat on Ayda, but joked: “You don’t get a medal or an award – and I should. Because I am subjected to more than my fair share of adoration. I go out and look at a stadium full of people who are incredibly fond of me and quite a few of them are incredibly good-looking. I should get some sort of f***ing award – a quadrupleplatinum disc.”
The dad-of-two also revealed he has a very low testosterone level and has had his sperm frozen. He added: “We want – and wanted – kids and if I take testosterone, it knocks the swimmers out.
“If I don’t take testosterone, I feel dreadful. So we had to bank some.”