DANNIELLA
"I NEED 11 BAGS OF COKE A DAY'
DANNIELLA Westbrook confessed yesterday that she’d still be buying 11 wraps of cocaine a day if she could afford it.
And as she prepared for rehab, the troubled actress also admitted her last coke binge was just four days ago and she sometimes “wishes she was dead”.
In an emotional interview on The Jeremy Kyle Show, she said: “If I had the money, I would be back to where I used to be – doing 11 bags a day.”
And she added: “I think at the end of the day, I’d be better off not being here at all sometimes.
“The last seven days, I’ve suffered with my mental health terribly. And I find that really, really hard.”
The 45-year-old former EastEnders star is now preparing to enter rehab.
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She said: “I find having personality disorders hard because I don’t understand the jargon that they give me to read about it.
“I think every person with mental health is a different case because we’re all different people.”
Danniella told Jeremy she vowed to get clean during a 10-week intensive treatment programme – despite drinking vodka and two bottles of wine a few hours earlier.
She also tweeted: “The first day on a 10 week program which will change my life make me strong and give me the tools to never feel the way I’ve felt the last four years... I’m never looking back.”
During the interview on the ITV show, Danniella also confessed to taking cocaine while pregnant with son Kai, now 22.
She said: “I was in a terrible state.
“I had a cocaine convulsion and my three-year-old son was trying to put a Mars bar in my mouth, trying to make me come
TOUGH CHAT: Jeremy round.” Danniella said she realised she could have killed her child and even asked social services to take him into care at one point.
The former Celebrity Big Brother star has struggled with drug addiction since the early 1990s, and recently said she hasn’t spoken to her 17-year-old daughter Jody for three years.
She said: “Jody is doing her life and she’s doing very well.
“She’s done brilliantly at school and now she’s in college and she’s doing great, and her dad is a great dad and he’s doing what’s best for her right now.”
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