Shocking price of my lost weekend DRINKING IS OUT OF CONTROL
I RECENTLY experienced a “lost weekend”.
I can remember going for a drink after work on the Friday night, but everything from about 9pm onwards is a blur.
I woke up on the Monday morning in an empty flat, miles from my home. I was wearing a white T-shirt (not mine) and a pair of men’s underpants.
I’m a bisexual woman and I have no idea how I got there or who the pants belonged to.
Dancing
As I stumbled to the bus stop, I switched on my phone and it lit up like a Christmas tree.
There were 56 messages from my girlfriend asking me what the heck I thought I was playing at.
On the bus I checked the messages and pictures I’d sent. There were shots and films of me dancing in a club, laughing, drinking and generally having an amazing time. I couldn’t recognise anyone around me, but they seemed to like me as much I liked them.
There were pics of me kissing another girl and groping another guy. So weird.
Now the whole world is against me. My girlfriend has branded me the most selfish, evil person alive. My parents say I’m a disgrace and even my sister, who always has my back, has said she can’t help me this time. myself. My problem is shouldn’t drink.
It’s no good for me. I go from 0-60 within three glasses of wine.
One minute I’m fine, the next I’m dancing on the table or offering to fight everyone in sight.
On that Friday I had promised my girlfriend I’d go straight home from work. She knew my boss was leaving and planning a party, but I swore I wouldn’t attend.
I was persuaded to pop in for a “quick one” and the rest is history. Why do I do this?
Why do I let people down? Why can’t I simply accept that drinking and me can’t be a thing?
I hate that I
JANE SAYS You have to apologise to everyone you have hurt. Don’t make excuses.
Go and see each person you have frightened and let down and explain that you’re sorry and intend to get the help you need.
Your parents and sister must have been terrified.
Your girlfriend trusted you not to attend the leaving party. I accept it’s often hard to escape work events when everyone is applying pressure, but you didn’t have to drink alcohol and you didn’t have to stay.
Take full responsibility for your actions and visit your GP for help. You need to have a full sexual health check, then you need to discuss your drinking to find out if you need help.
We all make mistakes, but you’re on your final warning, especially where your sister is concerned.
If you feel that someone may have taken advantage of you and that a drink may have been spiked or someone was coercive or cruel, then don’t hesitate to speak to the police. There may be more to this than meets the eye – but hopefully not.