Lockdown hubby makes me feel ill CRAVING FOR HOT LOVER
I HAVE two men in my One is my husband, other is my lover.
Splitting my time between the two is what keeps me sane. At the moment I’m holed up with my husband and I’m not happy.
I miss my lover with every fibre of my being and online sexathons just aren’t the same. I long for his attention and his touch.
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I realise that I’ve got a lot of deciding to do once lockdown is lifted. My husband of 12 years is a decent person, but completely wrapped up in his work and moneymaking schemes.
I’m sure he loves me in his own way, but we rarely have sex and, even when we do, it’s over and done with in mere minutes.
My lover, on the other hand, is exciting and dynamic.
He’s actually older than my husband but a very sexy and brilliant lover. During “normal times” my husband travels a lot, so my lover and I have plenty of opportunities to meet up for dinner and stay in hotels too.
Just before lockdown I took him to a spa for a treat. We enjoyed massages and treatments by day and multiple orgasms by night. It was heavenly.
The only problem is that my lover has no money whereas my husband is loaded. Do I trade cash for love? I’m very close to my two sisters who rely on backhanders from me for little luxuries. They don’t blame me for sleeping with my lover but say I’d be mad to give up a husband who is generous and away so much of the time.
I’m aware that I enjoy “the best of both worlds” but what can I do to stop myself from silently screaming during the night: “What the heck am I playing at?”
JANE SAYS: This is clearly something of a crossroads for you. For ages you’ve jogged along juggling a hardworking, but mostly absent husband and a keen, but penniless lover.
Now the whole world has been turned upside down and you’ve been forced to examine how you live and how you treat people.
Could it be your husband is aware of everything that’s going on and turns a blind eye because he has other lovers of his own?
Equally, has your lover ever shown any interest in being with you full time? He knows you’re married. Does that bother him? Or is he canny enough to realise that you’d have less disposable cash as a newly single woman?
What you’ve got to decide is who is going to make you happy. You can’t allow your sisters to convince you to keep the status quo if all they’re interested in is handouts. Maybe you will have to be bold and create a different life for yourself – one that doesn’t involve either man.
If your husband bores you and your lover bleeds you, then should you be with someone different who loves you for yourself? Take a good look in the mirror and start examining your conscience.