Tiny dancer
Aspen’s heartbeat has been stored in a Build-A-Bear and a relative named a star for him.
Natalie, who will have Aspen’s ashes turned into jewellery, has not been able to read the boys’ notes or any cards she received but is saving them in her SiMBA memory box.
A post-mortem examination failed to give any answers. Natalie said: “He was a perfectly healthy wee boy whose heart just stopped beating.”
Natalie says she and David have been brought closer together but their resolve was tested again two weeks ago when Natalie had another miscarriage, this time at nine weeks.
She said she had felt something was wrong and booked in for a private scan where she was told this baby had also died in the womb.
Natalie had become pregnant with Aspen at the same time as her best friend from school, who gave birth to a baby girl two weeks ago.
She said: “It took me a few days. I would have ordinarily been the first person at the hospital. But it was hard, holding a newborn.”
On her due date, Natalie attended the SiMBA Butterfly Release in Glasgow .
She said: “It was very, very, very hard but I want to mark it and I want to be strong for him and he deserves this and deserves to have his wee life celebrated.”
The Millers are now preparing to take part in the Great Scottish Run next month to raise cash for SiMBA with all four doing the Family Fun Run and David doing 10k.
Natalie also believes parents need to know there is help there for them.
She said: “I hope the vlog shows that.
“Some people wouldn’t even contemplate taking a video but this was for helping other people. But he was my baby - I don’t mind showing him.
“People thinks he looks like a wee alien, that’s OK.
“But for us, he’s our baby so that’s not an issue for me at all.
“We’ve got two wee boys and the though of losing either of them is incomprehensible.
“Although he was only 16 weeks, Aspen was our baby, our child, it’s exactly the same thing. He was our son.”
•To donate to the Millers’ Just Giving page for SiMBA see www.justgiving.com/fundraising/aspensarmy