Inside Kim K’s secret divorce diary
She’s kept a detailed log of every minute of their rocky marriage
‘Kim’s lost count of the insults and tirades’
It’s been an incredibly hard few weeks for Kim Kardashian, as she’s struggled to deal with the fallout of husband Kanye West’s increasingly erratic behaviour, while admitting she’s “powerless” to help him unless he helps himself. And last week, the toll it’s taken on her was clear to see, after Kim flew into Wyoming – where Kanye’s been holed up – and was pictured sobbing in his car during an intense conversation. As heat told you last week, Kim is determined to help Kanye – who suffers with bipolar disorder – through this episode, but she knows that their marriage is as good as over. And according to insiders, she’s been preparing herself for this unhappy ending from day one – by keeping a comprehensive log of every moment of their rocky relationship.
“Kim’s kept a diary that documents everything she and Kanye have been through,” says a source close to the star, who has four kids with Kanye – North, seven, Saint, four, Chicago, two, and one-year-old Psalm. “It’s been a good way of helping her learn from her mistakes while processing her feelings, but it’s also an important record, so she doesn’t forget anything. She doesn’t want to use it against Kanye, but if the split gets nasty, she’ll go over every line of this diary with a fine comb.”
Earlier this month, Kim opened up about Kanye’s struggles, asking her followers to show “compassion and empathy” for people suffering with mental ill health. While this isn’t the first time that Kanye has shown signs of erratic behaviour – experts claim he’s currently in the throes of a manic episode – it’s definitely the most concerning. Last month, he claimed during a presidential rally that he and Kim had considered having an abortion while she was pregnant with North. He’s also accused her of cheating on him and has called Kim and her mum Kris Jenner “white supremacists”. According to our insider, Kim has kept specific details of every single accusation he’s thrown at her over the past six years.“kim’s lost count of the insults and tirades Kanye’s aimed at people she loves, often over the most trivial things,” we’re told. “She’s written everything down, so events can’t be manipulated if she chooses to bring them out in the open.”
Last week, Kanye attempted to make amends, telling his Twitter followers, “I would like to apologise to my wife. To Kim, I want to say I know I hurt you. Please forgive me. Thank you for always being there for me.” According to our source, Kim still loves Kanye, but she’s also worried that recent events “might be too difficult to come back from”. ■