I’m at my best with my kids... that’s probably because we’re all autistic...
Model and reality television star CHRISTINE McGUINNESS reveals her autism diagnosis in her new book
CHRISTINE MCGUINNESS has tirelessly campaigned for autism awareness after her three children with husband TV presenter Paddy McGuinness, were diagnosed with the condition.
The 33-year-old model and reality TV star reveals both the struggles and the joy the couple have faced bringing up twins Leo and Penelope, eight, and five-year-old Felicity, in her new book Christine McGuinness: A Beautiful Nightmare.
She also details her battles with anorexia and a childhood blighted by abuse by a family friend.
Here in an extract from her book, she talks about her own autism diagnosis.
I have been confirmed as autistic. It’s strange, but I’ve noticed there are little hints throughout my life that I’m autistic and more like my children than I ever could have imagined. My issues with food, my social struggles, how hard I find it to make friends and stay focused, and my indecisiveness.
The way I float through life reminds me of how my eldest daughter Penelope is.
It all makes sense now. And as much as I’m not totally surprised, it’s still been emotional for me to accept, but it’s a relief as well.
My diagnosis came in August. Patrick and I were invited to meet with expert Sir Simon Baron-Cohen at Cambridge University.
Patrick and I filled out what’s called an AQ questionnaire. It tests for symptoms of autism. While lots of people might carry a few traits, to actually be classed as autistic you’re required to score a high number, and I did.
The scale goes from zero to 50 and the average neurotypical person would score up to 15. While my husband was bangon average, mine was 36, which is high.
Sir Simon confirmed I’m autistic. And not just mildly – I’m quite high up the spectrum.
It was a lot to take in and once my appointment was over, I broke down in floods of tears. I think it’s because the news conjured up a mixture of emotions and while I’m not totally shocked and it’s a relief, I’m just really sad for my younger self.
Because of my inability to concentrate and my hatred for my school, I left with no GCSEs. I was more than capable of sitting the exams, but I just couldn’t be in that exam hall.
I remember it so clearly… everyone was on single desks all over the room. I could hear people scribbling their pens on the exam paper and every page turning sounded like a drum banging. I just sat there and didn’t do anything. I didn’t lift my pen.
What made it even tougher was after a while of staring into space, I got shouted at by the teacher and asked to leave the room. I rushed out in tears and that was it.
After my appointment I set off on my drive home to Cheshire, and I thought about Patrick.
I wasn’t sure how he’d react, but when I told him he said he expected it and he’d suspected I was autistic for years – he never thought to tell me. Patrick was always conscious that I was a bit different and had my little quirks, but he never understood exactly what it was. There are times when he gets really frustrated with me, for example when it takes me hours to get ready. Not even when I’m getting fully glammed up, but simple things like picking between two plain T-shirts, and not being able to decide which one to wear.
And it’s mad when I think about it, that throughout my 20s, I never had one single night out – not one. I didn’t have a hen party, I didn’t have a 16th, an 18th, a 21st, or a 30th. For me, that’s normal.
I made every single excuse not to leave the house and socialise. I understand now it’s because I’m autistic, and it’s much easier to stay in and not have to deal with the real world when you’ve got autism.
I am the best version of me when I’m with my children and that’s probably because we’re all autistic. The four of us are quite happy to stay in and sometimes not talk to each other. It’s when I’m out and about that my autistic mind really goes into overdrive.
Even my food struggles I’ve had throughout my life make sense to me now.
I’ve only tried green food, like broccoli, over the last couple of years. I can eat it, because I know
I’ve got to be healthy, but I never once tried colourful food until my 30s. It’s quite common for autistic people to favour beige food.
So, my autistic traits can range from aversions to patterns, or my issues with food to something really social, like making friends.
I’m trying to see my diagnosis as a positive thing – at least I know for definite. In fact, there are lots of upsides to being autistic, just like there are with the three kiddies.
I’m quite creative and artistic, and I enjoy doing crafts and painting with the children.
One of my finest qualities is that I’m very open-minded to people and I think I’m genuinely kind. That’s something that’s in my children, too.
“I bet you wish you didn’t have children,” someone once said to me. How disgusting is that. I couldn’t believe it. Well, actually, no, they’re still my children and I love them so much and I’m so lucky to have them. Having had some time to digest my diagnosis, there are a few things I can take from it.
As well as it being a huge relief, I understand myself better than ever, I’m certain this can benefit my children, too. We haven’t told them yet that they’re autistic.
But now it’s been confirmed that I am, the fact that they’re like Mummy can only make it easier when we do speak to them about it.
I’m hoping my diagnosis will do a lot of good and any women reading this who are unsure about themselves, it might be inspiring to them.
I’m married with children and I’m working, which are things a lot of people might question whether an autistic person can do.
But I’m living proof that, although it’s not easy, with a bit of grit, resilience and a supportive family you can achieve anything.
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IN 1984, Ivan Reitman’s iconic comedy Ghostbusters saw ectoplasm-spattered paranormal exterminators, played by Bill Murray, Dan Aykroyd, Harold Ramis and Ernie Hudson save New York from supernatural destruction.
Now the baton passes to a new generation, with Reitman’s son Jason helming a fourth instalment in the series, which ignores the unfairly derided 2016 reboot to pick up threads from the first two films.
It starts with single parent Callie (Carrie Coon) and her two children, Trevor (Stranger Things’ Finn Wolfhard) and Phoebe (Mckenna Grace), being evicted from their home and reluctantly moving into the dilapidated farmhouse of Callie’s late father, Egon Spengler (played by Ramis in the original film), in the sleepy Oklahoma town of Summerville.
While Trevor secures shifts at a local diner so he can make romantic overtures to sassy teenage roller-waitress Lucky (Celeste
O’Connor), sister Phoebe – a proud nerd – starts school with trepidation but makes friends with classmate and conspiracy theorist Podcast (Logan Kim).
The children stumble upon a secret, buried deep beneath the town, which confirms Callie’s father’s apocalyptic predictions.
Aided by Phoebe’s teacher, Mr Grooberson (Paul Rudd), the kids answer the Ghostbusters’ call and confront a terrifying threat.
Jason Reitman’s script is drizzled with nostalgia to the point of sticky saturation, repurposing outlandish plot points from more than 35 years ago to promote the teens as mankind’s saviours.
Throwbacks to the original movie include adorable 3.5-inch tall Stay-Puft marshmallow men
which borrow from the Gremlins playbook to gleefully toast each other over barbecue grills.
Dedicated to the memory of Ramis who died in 2014, Ghostbusters: Afterlife spends too much time honouring the past to carve out a satisfying stand-alone jaunt.
A metal-gobbling phantom called Muncher is a meek substitute for Slimer, and Coon and Rudd are poorly served in the frenetic denouement.
Regardless, Reitman’s film whips up light, fluffy entertainment in fits and spurts and Grace’s spunky heroine is a beacon of non-conformity as special effects wizardry runs amok and Ray Parker Jr’s infectious theme song rises from the grave.
In cinemas now