HOT FOR NOOKIE AFTER NO-SEX RELATIONSHIP
I AM writing to you because I am a nineteen year old female virgin and I’m starting to feel like a freak.
What’s even worse is that my relationship of eleven months has just come to an end.
When I met my guy who’s also nineteen I thought he was the one and planned to really get to know each other and build up trust before I gave myself to him.
I thought we would have our whole lives together so throughout our relationship we did not have sex, but we were intimate.
We spent a lot of time kissing and tonguing each other which I enjoyed loads.
We would spend ages licking each others lips before he would dip his tongue into my mouth and mine into his which was greatly erotic.
This would always make him so hard down below which he never mentioned but I always noticed.
As the weeks went by and I trusted him more we started to touch each other intimately, he would lay next to me with his trousers on and I would be wearing my sexy white bra and panties.
I would feel his very large manhood outside of his clothes and he would feel my breasts and all around my fanny.
This quickly progressed on to him being nude and me just topless, which was just wonderful and almost too naughty to comprehend.
I got very wet as I wanked him off and saw him come for the first time, especially as it dripped all over my hands and arm – I even licked some of it off.
After a while, I began to fall in love with him, and trust him, and started to want full sex.
However, at this time I found out just by chance from answering his phone to a girl that he had actually shagged her only that week.
We had a huge fight and he said it was my fault for making him wait and said he didn’t love me because I was too frigid.
I feel so full of regret that I didn’t take the chance to sleep with him while we were together.
Now I’ve lost my first love and I’m still a virgin and I wonder if it’s my fault. It makes me so upset when I think about it as I wanted him to be my first.
It could have happened but it didn’t, because of me. I made him wait so long that he ended up cheating to get sex.
Now when I think about sex, I desperately want to have it and make myself have great orgasms.
The idea of sex with just anyone scares me as I want to meet a boy I trust.
I want it so desperately that I’m worried I’ll sleep with the first person who shows me attention yet it will mean nothing to them.
IT wouldn’t do you any harm to go visit your GP and explain to them what you’ve been through and ask whether you could have some counselling.
Some good therapy will straighten you out after this trauma of losing someone you loved after spending so much time nurturing the relationship.
It wouldn’t be good for you to go out and sleep with anyone but I also think that you shouldn’t stop going out as your prince is out there somewhere.
Try and forget your ex as he showed complete disregard for you.