I lost two sons.. one’s dead, the other’s in jail for killing him. But he can’t even bring himself to say sorry
Mum tells of anguish over brothers’ fatal fallout
Peter Moore, 33, fatally stabbed his younger sibling Derek during a fight in 2014.
As the sixth anniversary of Derek’s death approaches, mum April has admitted that Peter has still not said sorry for ending his brother’s life.
The 60-year-old also revealed she can’t talk to him about the day he broke her heart. She said: “I’ll never forgive him
but he’s my son.
“I’m torn because I’ve lost my son Derek and it was because of Peter – but I’ve lost him, too.
“When I first went to see Peter in prison, he looked broken. “I knew what he’d done and I knew I didn’t have his brother Derek because of it. But al l I could see was just my son sitting there helpless.
“I visit him in prison when I can and he calls me every week.
“But I can’t bring myself to ask him about it and he can’t talk about it to me. I know he isn’t coping with the guilt and although he hasn’t told me, I know he is sorry.”
Peter and Derek, 26, were at April’s home in Govan, Glasgow, when a violent row broke out. The mum-of-five had been staying at a friend’s house when she received a call telling her that her two sons were fighting.
She raced home but Derek died before she got there.
He had been stabbed four times and suffered 75 injuries on January 3, 2014.
His throat had been slit and he had been knifed in the eye.
Dad- of- two Peter, of Bonhi l l , Dunbartonshire, denied murder and claimed Derek, a lso a father, had started the fight.
During the trial at the High Court in Glasgow in October 2014, jurors heard the fatal wound, which caused massive internal bleeding, was to Derek’s abdomen. Peter Moore didn’t give evidence during the trial but had earlier told police: “When we fight, we fight for hours.
“I can’t remember arguing with him. He’s pure evil when he’s been drinking. He started it.”
He was originally sentenced to life and told he must serve a minimum of 18-anda-half years before he can apply for parole.
The minimum term was later reduced to 16 years after an appeal.
April has moved to West Sussex for a fresh start. She still carries Derek’s ashes with her because she can’t bear to be without him.
She added: “Many people don’t understand how I can still speak to Peter but I’m his mum. If I shut him out, I have lost both sons.
“I can’t bring myself to bury Derek. I take his ashes with me everywhere so I feel he is still with me.
“I know Peter will one day come out of prison and without me, he has nothing. We’re all serving a life sentence because of what he did.”
April also revealed she has not been able to celebrate Christmas since Derek died.
She said: “I’ve never put up a tree and I go away for the festive period as it’s so hard. I know many people who have lost loved ones f ind Christmas and New Year very difficult.
“Fami l ies who have loved ones serving time are separated and find it hard, too. I have both and each year it never gets any easier.”
I can’t bring myself to bury Derek. I take his ashes everywhere