I constantly take pictures of the twins. Every second is precious

The thing I remem remember most was asking nothing. She said: the doctors over and an over again if I was “I thought we’d going to die. I was p petrified.” come to the wrong Gradually Miche Michelle’s memory started house. I burst into t tears. I could ld almost l t something which fogged my brain and returning but it w was three more days taste the panic in my mouth and didn’t made everything that bit harder.” before she was reu reunited with her twins. calm down until Brent took me from room Michelle returned to her teaching job She said: “Cudd “Cuddling them for the first to room to reassure me. I slowly realised as planned, after a year’s maternity break, time again was amazing. a I knew they this was my home.” but sometimes mixed up pupils’ names. totally belonged to me and I fell in She even had to learn how to climb the love with them all over again.” stairs. She said: “It was as weeks Lexi and S Sam are six but Michelle But Michel Michelle had missed the first before I was confident with admits the t first year of their lives stilS is still She a total said: blur. “Most mums say few vital day days of bonding with her them.” Michelle’s mind nd children a and didn’t know how continued to play tricks on to chan change a nappy. her. She had mental l that, th but it was far more than blocks, jumbled words that. t I feel bad when people while reading the twins ask me when they first bedtime stories, couldn’t crawled or walked. I simply concentrate on books can’t c remember. and often struggled to o “I have to get out the recall if she’d washed her er p photo album to remind me hair during a shower. of those special moments. She said: “Sometimes I’d lose But I have two choices, I either my balance or get dizzy and d get t my sit and mourn mour the time we lost or I get friends’ children’s names wrong. on with enjoying the kids now.” “I was constantly writing lists to jog my While Michelle said her memory is memory. Funnily, I never had problems “operating at 90 per cent” and she’s eager looking after the twins or doing things that to catch every moment with her children come automatically, like making a cuppa on camera. She said: “I’m constantly or doing the dishes. I can also remember taking pictures of them because I know everything during the pregnancy. every second with them is precious.” “If just felt like I was touched by

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She Sh said: “I felt a little jealous jea and very guilty. I still sti feel sad that there are ar no pictures of us together to during that time. tim Brent showed me how ho to care for them.” Eleven E days after giving givi birth, Michelle and Brent, Bren a contract manager for an a electrical company, took the twins home. But Bu it was not such a good moment for Michelle – because bec she recognised