The Courier & Advertiser (Perth and Perthshire Edition)
Lucie looks at me with a glint of fire, and I’m relieved that she isn’t as defeated as she looks
Mac. January
I’d forgotten about the girl. Her email had suggested a vague time of arrival, but I’d been struggling with a particularly vexing passage and I opened the door wearing my face. Arthur named it that: my face.
I suppose it’s a mixture of cross and vacant. Cross because my train of thought has been derailed, and vacant because my mind is still somewhere in the Middle Ages, and not here, on the doorstep, glaring at this scared-looking girl.
“Take your hands out of your pockets. If the dogs see your hands in your pockets they go berserk.
“They think you’re about to dish out doggie treats. Basically you’re asking to be mugged.”
At my warning, the girl drops her hands to her sides like an obedient squaddie. What a glum little thing she is, pasty, with dark hair scraped back in a most unbecoming fashion.
She seemed larger when I’d interviewed her – more presence, more spark. “I’m looking for a Girl Friday,” I’d said, and she’d replied: “Well, I’m a Friday kind of girl.” Quite snappy, I’d thought.
“It’s Lucie,” she reminds me.
Welcoming
I try to rearrange my expression into something more welcoming.
I do remember. Lucie with an ie. Pretentious. Why don’t parents give their offspring good earthy names like Arthur?
I step out into the chilly air. The rain has stopped but I can still smell it. The girl looks bemused.
The dogs wag and sniff her shoes and Floss jumps up. Black trousers, never a good idea.
“Stop that, you silly bitch.”
The girl, Lucie with an ie, looks at me with a glint of fire, and I’m relieved that she isn’t as defeated as she looks.
“Talking to the dog, dear, not you. Black’s not a great colour round here. You’ll see every damn dog hair on it.”
I lock the front door behind me and pocket the key. “Now, I’m putting you in the Miller’s Cottage. We have spare rooms, of course, but I like my space. No offence.”
“None taken.”
She follows me back down the driveway. For a few moments all I can hear is the irritating grind of her suitcase wheels on the gravel.
It’s colder than I’d imagined, and I regret not pausing to grab my coat. I belt my old grey cardigan tightly under the bust with my arms.
The dogs shoot off towards the road, scattering leaves and birds in every direction.
I slow to let Lucie catch up and the suitcase trundle softens a bit.
“Now, usually I rent the Miller’s Cottage out to writers and the like, reclusive types, but I can’t be bothered with all the cleaning. Do you like cleaning, Lucie?”
She opens her mouth like a goldfish.
I wave a hand. “No matter. Cleaning may or may not become one of your duties. Did we discuss duties? No? Well, I think we’ll just play it by ear. You can take tomorrow off. Get acclimatised.”
We reach the road. I yell at the dogs but the wind’s getting up and they pretend not to hear. The wind sends them crazy. They gallop straight across the road. Good job it’s quiet.
They know where they’re going, of course – down the track that leads to the mill. As always, an image of Jim looms large in my mind. I hug my cardigan more tightly.
Stunning
“This path used to be the main road to the next parish, many moons ago.” I glance across the boundary wall.
The view is as familiar to me as my morning newspaper, but still it’s stunning; all that sky, purple with rain, and the ploughed field and the sea on the horizon.
On sunny days it sparkles like diamonds. Today it’s black and sluggish. I breathe in the rich aroma of cow dung.
Seagulls wheel overhead and squeal like cats, or babies. Jim always thought they sounded like babies.
“It’s lovely,” Lucie says. I look down at her feet. She’s wearing those fashionable canvas trainers. No support, or a single bit of damp-proofing.
“You’ll need boots round here,” I say. “Gets a bit boggy after rain. There’s a bundle of old wellies in the cottage. Feel free.”
The track opens up into the mill den. The cottage occupies prime position at the entrance to it, built on a gentle rise.
Low and long and white, I have always seen it as a yappy little terrier, a watchdog, while down near the edge of the burn the old mill slumbers, a sleeping dragon.
I steel myself not to look at the place. We march past the front of the cottage, the front-door key having been lost a long time ago, until we come to the tradesmen’s entrance at the rear. A pergola of trailing ivy forms a shelter over the back door, and there’s an old wooden bench against the wall.
I rummage through a pile of gravy bones in my cardigan pocket in search of the key. Immediately, all three dogs appear, noses moist with anticipation. “You can take this key, I have a spare.”
The back door scrapes across the stone floor like a wet sweeping brush. The place smells damp and mushroomy.
Sometimes I leave a window open to air the place, but the ivy encourages the sparrows, and they’re a nuisance.
I’m always afraid they’ll find their way in and leave mess all over the curtains.
“So the phone signal isn’t great, I’m told. Can’t stand all that technical nonsense. I believe you can get the wi-fi. My son, Arthur, sees to that kind of thing.”
The dogs skitter into the house, fanning out in all directions, while I lead the girl at a steadier pace through narrow, stone- flagged passages, past baskets of logs and kindling and wellies lined up on newspaper.
The kitchen is big and bright, although I notice Lucie shiver.
She’s looking around the place, taking in the oak beams and the shelf with all its old jars and bottles.
Comfort
“You can do what you want with the place, within reason,” I say.
I’m thinking cushions and throws. The young people like their comfort.
“Go easy on the candles, though. I had a woman in here set my curtains on fire.”
Lucie narrows her eyes. They are grey and rather bleak. “No candlelit evenings for me,” she says. “You’re okay.”
“Fair enough. Now, the heating’s on a timer. Don’t fiddle with it. But you can try and get to grips with the Aga, if you like, or you can light the fire.” I nod towards the grate.
It’s one of those old fifties surrounds with the puce tiles and a companion set. She’s probably too young to know how to light a fire.
“There are matches and firelighters in that cupboard. You might need to use newspaper to get it going. I generally twist it into croissant shapes and –”
“I know.” She nods. “We have a coal fire in the parlour at the manse.”
More tomorrow.