I couldn’t possibly judge people unless I’m willing to be judged myself...
BGT’s Amanda Holden has done it all. Now she is set to release her first album. ALEX GREEN learns more
IN our youth-obsessed world, an artist on the cusp of turning 50 does not normally spark a bidding war for their debut album. Not so for Amanda Holden, whose first foray into recording did just that. After 30-odd years in showbusiness, over a decade as a judge on Britain’s Got Talent and a year co-hosting the Heart Breakfast radio show with Jamie Theakston, Amanda was looking for more.
“I don’t feel like I need to prove myself,” she explains down the phone from her family home.
“But I always think it is a good idea to constantly put myself out there because I am a judge on Britain’s Got Talent. I have always said that I couldn’t possibly judge people unless I am willing to be judged myself and I stand by that.”
Songs From My Heart features 13 tracks, mostly from the world of musicals.
Classics abound: Over The Rainbow from The Wizard Of Oz, Don’t Cry For Me Argentina from Evita, I Dreamed A Dream from Les Miserables.
The idea emerged, by chance, out of her wedding anniversary with record producer husband Chris Hughes.
The pair married in 2008, some five years after her divorce from comedian Les Dennis, and share two daughters – Lexi, 14, and Hollie, eight.
To celebrate the milestone, Amanda decided to record a version of Tightrope from The Greatest Showman.
“It was our wedding anniversary, and me and my two children, who were then 12 and six, came and recorded it in a studio with me as a bit of fun really.
It’s very much about losing our son Theo.. That was...very hard for me to get through without weeping. Amanda on the song With You
“We even changed some of the words. “We then showed it to him as a surprise and he was very overwhelmed by it and suggested we put it on social media, which is unlike him because he is an incredibly private person compared to me,” she laughs.
“And then there was like a bidding war for it, which was not what we were expecting – and amazing and joyful. I was 47 or 48 at the time so you don’t normally start a recording career at that age. It’s fantastic.”
Amanda has not written any songs for the album, but she says many of her choices hold special meaning to her. “The whole album is a celebration, but when I listen to them back-to-back it is very emotional, very poignant,” she observes.
A Thousand Years by US singersongwriter Christina Perri, which appeared in one of the Twilight films, reminds her of her relationship with daughter Lexi.
“The lyrics in that I relate very much to my daughter who, when she was placed into my arms when I had just had her, I felt like I knew her already and that I had been waiting around for her.
“We watched the Twilight series and when that song came on I knew that I was forever going to think of Lexi when I hear this song.”
But there are also lows, as on With You from the musical Ghost.
In 2011, at seven months pregnant with her son Theo, a scan revealed his heart had stopped.
Amanda underwent a caesarean at West Middlesex University Hospital, where she had trained as a midwife for an ITV documentary called Out Of My Depth in 2009. Her experience prompted her to set up Theo’s Hope, a fund providing bereavement counsellors in maternity units around the UK.
“It’s about grief and loss,” she offers. “It’s very much about losing our son Theo and how we felt during that time.
“That was a very poignant song and very hard for me to get through without weeping. It was a very hard one.”
I Know Him So Well from Chess features a certain Sheridan Smith.
Amanda is instantly animated when the duet comes up.
“Everyone loves Sheridan Smith,” she gushes of the actress-singer, who has just had her first child.
“I got her number off David Walliams and just asked her. We had me singing with a session singer and we sent it off to her. She agreed straight away and I was blown away.
“Remembering she was pregnant, getting her into the studio, and videoing it all. We literally couldn’t leave each
other alone. She was just wonderful. I love her to bits.”
Amanda has worked across presenting, daytime television, drama and the West End stage.
But, she explains, music was her first love growing up in Bishop’s Waltham, Hampshire.
“I had a band and our costumes were 10p bin bags that we had got from the local laundrette. We cut the neck and the arms out and wore belts. We were a band and we going places.”
Would she debut a similar outfit on Britain’s Got Talent?
“Probably not. God, no, that would actually hilarious,” she laughs. “Cheaper, but no.”
She may baulk at wearing a binbag, but Amanda certainly has no qualms about raising eyebrows with her wardrobe choices.
In 2017, a Julien Macdonald gown with a plunging front she wore on BGT racked up 663 Ofcom complaints in three months, making it the most controversial thing on TV that year, while a blue dress in series sparked 235 complaints to the television watchdog, after viewers complained they could see her nipples.
It led Amanda to hit back on her Instagram in her usual sassy style: “Mmmm really?! Who has nipples this close to their cleavage?! FYI. A boned corset dented the girls all night.”
Wardrobe controversies aside, this series has seen Amanda standing in for Simon Cowell as head judge on the ITV show, after the music mogul broke parts of his back in an electric bike accident at his home in Malibu.
While she enjoyed holding the casting vote on the panel (with Diversity head honcho Ashley Banjo filling the empty space), Amanda admits she longs for Cowell’s return.
“Oh my God, I miss him so much,” she says.
“Ashley is doing the most phenomenal job and is so bright and witty and clever and just brilliant.
“(Simon) is so naughty. That’s what I miss. I miss having my pigtails pulled and being poked because that’s what he does. He just winds us up and I just miss him for that.”