Model Cara tells of her battle with depression
CARA DELEVINGNE has spoken of her struggle with depression, saying she felt there was “just something dark within me”.
The model-turned-Hollywood actress acknowledged that she had the world at her feet.
She told Net-A-Porter’s weekly digital magazine The EDIT that talking about mental health had been difficult with friends, who would say “but you’re so lucky”.
“I’d be like, ‘I know, trust me, I know. I know I’m the luckiest girl in the world, I understand all of these things, and I wish I could appreciate it. There is just something dark within me I cannot seem to shake.”’
The 25-year-old said that she “hated” looking like a boy growing up and felt that she “didn’t want to be alive any more” when she had a breakdown at 15.
She said of those years: “Teenagers can be very, very cruel. I wasn’t into the same things that all my popular friends were. I was a very late developer.
“I didn’t have boobs or start my period till very late. And that whole thing of being called frigid, and being flatchested... I felt alienated and alone.”
She added: “I turned my anger on to myself. Instead of using (my) sword and shield (to protect myself), I just put my shield up and stabbed myself.”
But the actress said she felt she could now “be happy” and said: “I want to have a farm, live on a beach... I want kids. I can’t wait (to have) that love.”
The full interview is at www.net-a-porter.com/magazine/421/20