He harps on her memory lapses, it’s starting to get old
DEAR CAROLYN: My husband has lately been telling me often, “That’s the fourth (or so) time you have asked me that.” It’s quite often, and I told him he is not aware of the side effects of the medications I take for chronic pain. Two list memory problems as side effects. I try not to complain about my pain or the limitations it causes me. My medications don’t make me irritable or mean — just forgetful.
He is the same way with his mother and anyone else who might repeat a story. My mother died of Alzheimer’s, and so I am especially sensitive about that.
If I confront him, he will say he’s just teasing. He is wonderful in so many other ways. I just would like some advice on how to stop this behavior.
— Still With-It Wife
DEAR READER: You do realize you’re not the only one repeating yourself, yes? He responds to your repetitions with one of his own.
The two of you are coming at this problem from different directions for different reasons, but you’re getting to the same place: a dispiriting rut. And each of you has arrived there with the same expectation that the other one is responsible for fixing it.
I hope you’ll both see that, drop the expectations and show up with sympathy instead. You’re in pain and struggling with memory-related side effects; that’s not easy. He’s being asked or told things over and over and over — not just from a spouse on heavy meds, but from a mom losing ground to time; that’s not easy, either. And when he chooses to say something instead of just sitting through the nth retelling as if it’s new, then he’s the bad guy.
It sounds as if it would help each of you to spend some time imagining what the other’s predicament feels like. Right now, you’re both focused on your own experiences, and that contributes to the kind of empathy-deficit loop you’re in:
Your mind is on your struggle with your pain and meds, and you want him to understand. His mind is on his struggle with your repetitiveness, and he wants you to understand. So both of you are wanting, and neither of you is giving, so neither of you is receiving, so both are stuck on wanting, which makes the wanting (and not listening or giving) worse. That’s the loop.
Sympathy — giving — is what breaks it. You: “I know it’s hard to listen to the same thing for the nth time.” He: “I know it’s hard to have a chronic health condition.”
Sweet relief, no? If you can persuade him to join you in this more forgiving place?
Even better, once you’re both willing to do this for each other, you position yourselves to get out of the rut together. A simple, kind signal, which he agrees to give you when you’re repeating yourself, and you agree to heed graciously, could help you out. Maybe he … pats your forearm, if you’re close by. If not, he taps his ear twice. Or a verbal cue, “You’re seeing your shadow” (“Groundhog Day” reference). Whatever you come up with and agree on together will be better than anything I suggest at defusing this natural, probably inevitable, needlessly cyclical but not insurmountable stress.